"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.
Don’t be impressed with your own wisdom.
Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil.
Then you will have healing for your body and strength for your bones." [Proverbs 3:5-8, NLT]
"...you must continue to believe this truth and stand firmly in it. Don’t drift away from the assurance you received when you heard the Good News...I am glad when I suffer for you in my body, for I am participating in the sufferings of Christ that continue for his body, the church." [ Colossians 1:23-24, NLT]
Last Thursday morning...Carter came running up to me and said, "Daddy, Daddy...I am so frustrated and very upset!" Of course, I paused and said, "what's wrong bud?" He then went into sharing the frustration he was experiencing as he attempted to build a pirate ship with his Legos. He had built the left and right sides of the base (hull), but could not seem to get the two of them to join together. So, I encouraged him - I thought - that sometimes it is best for us to start over, and make sure that we have built things correctly, and that one little mistake may not allow us to put "whatever it is" together right. [It was actually the "quick" answer...because I really didn't have the time to help him right then and there! Just being honest...]
So, Carter goes back to the family room, takes the left and right sides apart, rebuilds them - and 5 minutes later...I hear Legos being chucked across the room as now Carter is crying out his frustration! If the kid knew swear words - he probably would have used them at that point! He was jacked!
So, I stopped working...went out to assess the situation, and upon my arrival...boy did he ever give me a look! He was so mad at me! Here he had built the left and right sides correct the first time, took them apart and rebuilt them a second time perfectly and still could not get them to fit. So, I sat down with him on the floor and asked if he would let me help. Carter handed me the two sides...and guess what...I couldn't even get them to go together! Man, did I ever feel like a jerk! The box says for kids 5-7...what about daddy's who are 30? It must have taken me three or four minutes to figure out what to do, and finally I got the two sides connected...handed them back to Carter, gave him a huge hug, said I was sorry...and wiped the crocodile tears off his cheek, that were streaming down from those beautiful blue eyes of his!
And as I went back to my office (aka - the bedroom we are staying in here at the farm) I was broken! It is the perfect story of how this journey has been for Kelly and I. I truly believe that we have built the left and right sides of the "hull" correctly and for whatever reason - I can't get them to fit together. And trusting in my own understanding, I tore things apart...a couple of times...and tried to "rebuild" to reach the same exact end!
Have you ever been there before? When things just don't/won't come together, knowing full well that you did everything "according to the instructions" correctly! I mean - Kelly and I have been walking with our eyes fixed on Jesus, seeking the Lord's Will for our lives in this journey and pursuing the Holy Spirit! But - things are just not coming together! Was it sin? Did I do something wrong, did she? Did we skip a step, miss something or mess up somewhere?
These are just some of the thoughts I have had to renounce over the last two weeks...but if I only had the faith of my son...who goes directly to his "daddy" when he is frustrated...not just for a quick answer - but fully relying on the provision, wisdom and knowledge to teach him what to do! What a lesson...what truth...and all through the eyes, heart, and tears of a child!
And this is the Truth...our Heavenly Father, doesn't act like us earthly fathers. He doesn't give a quick answer and send us away! He gets down on his knees, wipes the tears and makes every situation a character lesson! Every situation...for His Grace, Mercy and Compassion are not limited by our circumstances! He is not worried about how much time it takes, how hard it is, or how happy, comfortable, secure we "feel"...He is concerned about forming, molding, shaping and developing our character to be more like His Son's - period! Why - for the edification, unity and growth of His Body...the Church...and the advancement of His Kingdom, restoring His Glory and Image through those He calls His own - those believing in the Life, Death, Resurrection and Return of our Savior - Christ Jesus - who died on Calvary's Cross to set us free from the death and bondage of our sin! And just as the Lord encouraged Joshua - "as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you nor forsake you." [Joshua 1:5] - He encourages us today! Sometimes it may "feel" like He has left us...but He never will! We can never out run His grip of Grace...and sometimes we must let our head lead our heart! For transformation comes through the renewing of our mind! [see Romans 12]
Move Update:
Broken bread...and squeezed out wine! That is where we are! Sahara Drive is no longer an option...and it is not because of Stan and Karen! They are an absolutely amazing couple, and have become dear friends! They too have/are going through quite a journey-and need our prayers! They are moving - not to the home they "thought" they were going to purchase 3 weeks ago, as they have discerned it is not the Will of God to buy that home, but they are hopefully buying another home in the area - have made an offer, and things look like they are moving forward...but we are not with Sahara Drive!
The best way to describe the last week is through this analogy: Many of us - if not all - have experienced a Capital Stewardship Campaign with a non-profit organization or a church. I have had several experiences and leadership roles with such campaigns...and many times there are "faith pledges" made that are never followed through on in action! And those undelivered "faith intentions" have tremendous impact - from a ministry stand-point! And don't get me wrong...God can feed 50,000 with two fish and five loaves of bread - with leftovers - when we act according to His will - by Trusting, Obeying, and Fixing our Eyes on Jesus! But Christ specifically teaches us in Luke 14..."But don’t begin until you count the cost. For who would begin construction of a building without first calculating the cost to see if there is enough money to finish it? Otherwise, you might complete only the foundation before running out of money, and then everyone would laugh at you. They would say, ‘There’s the person who started that building and couldn’t afford to finish it!’
“Or what king would go to war against another king without first sitting down with his counselors to discuss whether his army of 10,000 could defeat the 20,000 soldiers marching against him? And if he can’t, he will send a delegation to discuss terms of peace while the enemy is still far away." [vs: 28-32, NLT]
And for many of us...we may receive this scripture only through a financial perspective, but Christ is teaching us here about the cost of being His disciple! What is the cost of being a "sold out, surrendered" follower of Jesus Christ? Giving up everything we own! Especially what this broken world tells us we "deserve"! It may mean the loss of social status or wealth. Or giving up control of our time, money, career or what we may see as a dream home. No wonder Christianity has an image problem...because just as Christ taught us...“If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it. And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but are yourself lost or destroyed? If anyone is ashamed of me and my message, the Son of Man will be ashamed of that person when he returns in his glory and in the glory of the Father and the holy angels." [Luke 9:23-26, NLT]
Do I believe that Christ led us to Sahara Drive? I do! Why? For His Glory to be revealed! For it was never about a house...it may have only been for the prayer with Victoria Jackson in Citizen's Bank, or the awesome friendship we now have with Stan and Karen! Are they disappointed? You better believe it! For they too felt God wanted us in their home! But - we must let go and lay down our selfish desires, hopes and dreams - pick up our cross - and follow Him daily, even when we don't know why! We must give up our plan, and accept His! For Christ taught us...you cannot become my disciple without giving up everything you own! [vs. 33]
So what does all this mean...we have counted the costs...and I am not about to lay a foundation, without the resources necessary to build a home - where life, community and ministry collide! I can't make a commitment to "home ownership" for it is not of the Lord - for us - at this time! Could we "get into" and close on Sahara Drive, yeah - but through countless hours of prayer, petition and conversation with our wise counsel...there was just no unity or peace in the decision to "buy" a home! God has called us to be "wise stewards" of His resources - for He owns everything, and we are just managers of His provision - and Wisdom has spoken with great peace and unity - that right now - we must lay down Sahara Drive! There are too many unknowns with all the medical bills we may/are facing for Kelly and Jackson [as we are still rebounding from my medical bills following the motorcycle accident/miracle], the extent of care that will be needed in the early years of Jackson's life, the transitional nature of ministry and the call to mobilize and preach the Gospel, and though we could have closed on Sahara Drive the resources were not made available to have the margin necessary for the "unknowns" - and I was not about to commit "financial suicide" in the midst of this storm! We have made some "dumb" financial decisions in the past - and for those experiences, I Praise the Lord - for He has turned those "immature" decisions into great teaching moments and I am so thankful for the provision and resources He has blessed us with, and called us to manage with His Wisdom!
We continue to Praise God for who He is and for the way he continues to reveal himself to us through our wise counsel and the awesome men and women of Faith - who continue to reinforce the foundation of prayer and express the grace, love, compassion and care of our Heavenly Father! We stand firm on the Promise that in Christ lies hidden all the treasures of Wisdom and Knowledge - and to see that demonstrated through you all - is absolutely overwhelming!!!
So, God...here are the left and right sides, which I/we have built through your instruction and direction - the tears of frustration have emerged, due to my reliance on my own knowledge. But Lord, I can't put them together, and I need your help! Thank you for never letting go, never forsaking and always waiting for us to turn to you! It is your turn now...
And you know the greatest thing...15 minutes later, Carter knocked on the door and was so excited to show me the amazing pirate ship he built! It was awesome...and I was/am so proud of him!
[Now you know the reason for the "silence" in the blog...for there is a time to speak/write and there is a time to listen! Prayer is a two way street as we seek God's will in our lives...sometimes we need to talk it out, more often we should listen! That is why I truly believe that God created us with two ears, and one mouth! I will keep you updated on the move...as we are currently praying through several scenarios and Trusting in the Lord for continued clarity, peace, unity and provision! He is Faithful...and He is in control!]
Jackson update:
Please be in prayer tomorrow morning as we meet with our team of doctors! It has been over a month now - since our last echo and ultra sound, and we are ready to see the little man! He is moving all over the place and I feel so bad for Kelly - Jackson is a mover and a shaker! Kelly is feeling well and "enjoying" being 8 months pregnant and the normalises that come with the journey! We are only 8 weeks out - and can't wait to have this little Promise and Miracle in our arms!
Love you all...and make sure you check back tomorrow night/Friday morning for an update on Jackson!
All Eyes on Jesus - now ya' hear!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Calling all singers...
Listen to the words of the wise; apply your heart to my instruction. For it is good to keep these sayings in your heart and always ready on your lips. I am teaching you today - yes, you - so you will trust in the Lord. I have written thirty sayings for you, filled with advice and knowledge. In this way, you may know the truth and take an accurate report to those who sent you. [Proverbs 22: 17-21, NLT]
"Flowers need a lot of water..." was the phrase that Kelly and I woke up to this morning, as my blackberry alarm buzzed in my ear! It was sent to us in an email from a dear sister and friend in the Lord - who is incredible, wise counsel in our faith walk. And when I read these words...immediately my mind went to the scene of the Samaritan woman at the well, as Kelly and I were very thirsty! Not necessarily for a drink of water, but we were spent - absolutely wore out -and after a night of restless sleep we woke absolutely drained! Even Carter shared as he climbed into bed with us this morning that he did not sleep well, had some bad dreams and woke up "very upset", as he described it...
But it was the next line in the email, that clarified/affirmed the reference for me to John 4:10: “If you only knew the gift God has for you and who you are speaking to, you would ask me, and I would give you living water." Her words were simple, and yet full of insight...
"Flowers need a lot of water. Could it be that the Lord is going to use all those tears to provide even MORE blooms in the desert? He is the Master Gardener."
He is the Master Gardener, the Great Physician, and the Fountain of Living Water...and all we need to do is ask Him, and He would give "living water"! And so this morning we turned to Him in His Word and asked of Him for the promise of overflow of Living Water to fill, renew and restore us!
Over the last several weeks I have been taking a walk every afternoon...don't get excited-it is just to the mailbox...desperate to receive a note of encouragement, a card, a book - just something that would allow my mind to stop "thinking" so much about the move, the house, Jackson, our situation, how the Lord is going to provide, or when the Lord is going to deliver us...but everyday it has been empty! I mean nothing - no junk mail, no solicitation, not even a bill - talk about a miracle! But it was a little over a week ago that my mom and I finally figured out, that when she forwarded her and dad's mail to their new address - it also forwarded all of our family's mail there as well. So of course, last week, I went online and corrected the change for Kelly and my mail to be delivered back to the farm. And even though we received confirmation that the address change is in effect - now mom and dad or Kelly and I are not receiving any mail in any mailbox! So, somewhere in the midst of the "USPS black hole" you will find there all the bills, all the letters, all the junk mail and all the notes of encouragement that have been sent over the last two weeks to us! And man is it frustrating...but oh, what a lesson HE has taught us! Even though this "wicked scheme" of the enemy has cut a line of encouragement...our Master has used it to Glorify His Name and Teach us in His Ways!
In Proverbs 22 the Holy Spirit revealed to me today a powerful insight...that, "I am teaching you today - yes, you - so you will trust in the Lord." So many times we tend to rely on, lean on, or trust in the counsel and encouragement of others - and not to say that is wrong or unwise - but it is...if we don't look to Him, lean on Him and Trust in Him...because “If you only knew the gift HE has for you and who you are speaking to, you would ask HIM, and HE would give you living water.” Do you see the promise there...
If we would just ask Him, turn to Him, rely on Him...He would give us Living Water - that we would thirst no more! That we would be filled with "the gift"...the indwelling and outflow of the Holy Spirit in our life - that we would not be worn out, exhausted, absolutely spent or drained! That our tears would only "create more blooms in the desert" - that the Spirit would guide, lead, instruct, equip, correct, renew, restore, resurrect and reveal to us the Truth that would unlock and continue to set us free! And - oh - what a gift...and all we have to do is ask!
And so here is where Kelly and I need your help - and we are calling all singers...
"Blessed be the Lord, Who daily loads us with benefits,
The God of our salvation!
Our God is the God of salvation; And to GOD the Lord belong escapes from death.
But God will wound the head of His enemies, The hairy scalp of the one who still goes on in his trespasses.
The Lord said, “I will bring back from Bashan, I will bring them back from the depths of the sea,
That your foot may crush them in blood, And the tongues of your dogs may have their portion from your enemies.”
They have seen Your procession, O God, The procession of my God, my King, into the sanctuary.
The singers went before, the players on instruments followed after;
Among them were the maidens playing timbrels.
Bless God in the congregations, The Lord, from the fountain of Israel. [Psalm 68:19-25, NKJV]
Did you hear that...God will crush His enemies - those giants that surround and come against His people! God will destroy the wicked schemes of this world! God will wound those who do not turn from their sin, and accept the Unconditional, Unmerited, Unfailing Love and Grace of Our Lord and Savior -that washed away the sin of the world through the Blood that was shed on the Cross at Calvary! He will create an escape, provide the resources and deliver us from sheer death and destruction...if we only believe, look, trust, and rely on Him! That is His promise... Psalm 68 is a rally cry for God's people to fix their eyes on Jesus, and ask him for the Promise of Living Water! He is the fountain...and all who drink of Him...will never go thirsty! He has brought us to a point of "definition" in our relationship with Him in this journey...and even though we are weak and weary - we ask of Him, rely on Him, lean on Him, and Trust in Him! We do not look just to the mailbox for direction, encouragement and gifts - for all we have to do is ask of Him...
Though the silence and the delays may be deafening and frustrating...turn to Him, and ask that He would bring "singers" to go before - a choir to step out in faith, when there seems to be no way - and "players of instruments" to come after! So we may share the story of His Great Love, Grace and Provision for generations to come, and let us never forget...that when we boast, we do not boast in our own, but in Christ and Him Crucified - just as the Living Word teaches us! To Christ alone be the Glory now and forever more!
Do you believe...that He is the Fountain of Living Water...and that He has incredible gifts, incomparable riches, and the Power, Strength, and Majesty to move that mountain, deliver and provide the resources in abundance in your life...in ways that will "shock and awe" us? I do...and so I ask that you would sing with me, stand on the Promises of God and walk by Faith-and not by sight!
Love you all...and keep those Eyes on Jesus!
"Flowers need a lot of water..." was the phrase that Kelly and I woke up to this morning, as my blackberry alarm buzzed in my ear! It was sent to us in an email from a dear sister and friend in the Lord - who is incredible, wise counsel in our faith walk. And when I read these words...immediately my mind went to the scene of the Samaritan woman at the well, as Kelly and I were very thirsty! Not necessarily for a drink of water, but we were spent - absolutely wore out -and after a night of restless sleep we woke absolutely drained! Even Carter shared as he climbed into bed with us this morning that he did not sleep well, had some bad dreams and woke up "very upset", as he described it...
But it was the next line in the email, that clarified/affirmed the reference for me to John 4:10: “If you only knew the gift God has for you and who you are speaking to, you would ask me, and I would give you living water." Her words were simple, and yet full of insight...
"Flowers need a lot of water. Could it be that the Lord is going to use all those tears to provide even MORE blooms in the desert? He is the Master Gardener."
He is the Master Gardener, the Great Physician, and the Fountain of Living Water...and all we need to do is ask Him, and He would give "living water"! And so this morning we turned to Him in His Word and asked of Him for the promise of overflow of Living Water to fill, renew and restore us!
Over the last several weeks I have been taking a walk every afternoon...don't get excited-it is just to the mailbox...desperate to receive a note of encouragement, a card, a book - just something that would allow my mind to stop "thinking" so much about the move, the house, Jackson, our situation, how the Lord is going to provide, or when the Lord is going to deliver us...but everyday it has been empty! I mean nothing - no junk mail, no solicitation, not even a bill - talk about a miracle! But it was a little over a week ago that my mom and I finally figured out, that when she forwarded her and dad's mail to their new address - it also forwarded all of our family's mail there as well. So of course, last week, I went online and corrected the change for Kelly and my mail to be delivered back to the farm. And even though we received confirmation that the address change is in effect - now mom and dad or Kelly and I are not receiving any mail in any mailbox! So, somewhere in the midst of the "USPS black hole" you will find there all the bills, all the letters, all the junk mail and all the notes of encouragement that have been sent over the last two weeks to us! And man is it frustrating...but oh, what a lesson HE has taught us! Even though this "wicked scheme" of the enemy has cut a line of encouragement...our Master has used it to Glorify His Name and Teach us in His Ways!
In Proverbs 22 the Holy Spirit revealed to me today a powerful insight...that, "I am teaching you today - yes, you - so you will trust in the Lord." So many times we tend to rely on, lean on, or trust in the counsel and encouragement of others - and not to say that is wrong or unwise - but it is...if we don't look to Him, lean on Him and Trust in Him...because “If you only knew the gift HE has for you and who you are speaking to, you would ask HIM, and HE would give you living water.” Do you see the promise there...
If we would just ask Him, turn to Him, rely on Him...He would give us Living Water - that we would thirst no more! That we would be filled with "the gift"...the indwelling and outflow of the Holy Spirit in our life - that we would not be worn out, exhausted, absolutely spent or drained! That our tears would only "create more blooms in the desert" - that the Spirit would guide, lead, instruct, equip, correct, renew, restore, resurrect and reveal to us the Truth that would unlock and continue to set us free! And - oh - what a gift...and all we have to do is ask!
And so here is where Kelly and I need your help - and we are calling all singers...
"Blessed be the Lord, Who daily loads us with benefits,
The God of our salvation!
Our God is the God of salvation; And to GOD the Lord belong escapes from death.
But God will wound the head of His enemies, The hairy scalp of the one who still goes on in his trespasses.
The Lord said, “I will bring back from Bashan, I will bring them back from the depths of the sea,
That your foot may crush them in blood, And the tongues of your dogs may have their portion from your enemies.”
They have seen Your procession, O God, The procession of my God, my King, into the sanctuary.
The singers went before, the players on instruments followed after;
Among them were the maidens playing timbrels.
Bless God in the congregations, The Lord, from the fountain of Israel. [Psalm 68:19-25, NKJV]
Did you hear that...God will crush His enemies - those giants that surround and come against His people! God will destroy the wicked schemes of this world! God will wound those who do not turn from their sin, and accept the Unconditional, Unmerited, Unfailing Love and Grace of Our Lord and Savior -that washed away the sin of the world through the Blood that was shed on the Cross at Calvary! He will create an escape, provide the resources and deliver us from sheer death and destruction...if we only believe, look, trust, and rely on Him! That is His promise... Psalm 68 is a rally cry for God's people to fix their eyes on Jesus, and ask him for the Promise of Living Water! He is the fountain...and all who drink of Him...will never go thirsty! He has brought us to a point of "definition" in our relationship with Him in this journey...and even though we are weak and weary - we ask of Him, rely on Him, lean on Him, and Trust in Him! We do not look just to the mailbox for direction, encouragement and gifts - for all we have to do is ask of Him...
Though the silence and the delays may be deafening and frustrating...turn to Him, and ask that He would bring "singers" to go before - a choir to step out in faith, when there seems to be no way - and "players of instruments" to come after! So we may share the story of His Great Love, Grace and Provision for generations to come, and let us never forget...that when we boast, we do not boast in our own, but in Christ and Him Crucified - just as the Living Word teaches us! To Christ alone be the Glory now and forever more!
Do you believe...that He is the Fountain of Living Water...and that He has incredible gifts, incomparable riches, and the Power, Strength, and Majesty to move that mountain, deliver and provide the resources in abundance in your life...in ways that will "shock and awe" us? I do...and so I ask that you would sing with me, stand on the Promises of God and walk by Faith-and not by sight!
Love you all...and keep those Eyes on Jesus!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Power is made perfect in weakness...
God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. [Ephesians 2:6-10, NIV, emphasis mine]
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness!" [2 Corinthians 12:9, NIV, emphasis added]
"Incomparable riches"...it begs to ask the question, doesn't it? A question that many times is swept under the rug - never to be discussed? Hidden in a drawer - never to be open? Buried in a grave - in the secret life of pleasure and gain of worldly possessions...but a soul that is lost forever!
So let me ask it...Are - we - rich?
Over the weekend - I had the awesome opportunity and privilege of attending a weekend seminar with Chip Ingram at the Billy Graham Training Center at the Cove in Asheville, NC - and this is the question Chip threw out during his Saturday afternoon teaching. It was tough, direct, and cut to the souls of many sitting in the room. It was uncomfortable at times for many - including this guy - to hear the Truth and allow the Holy Spirit to examine, speak, reveal, correct and equip our minds, souls and hearts in gaining an answer to a very powerful question: Are we rich?
Immediately our minds may think of wealth, status, image, power, influence, or the worldly possessions that one is/has gathered in the conquest of becoming rich. But, we are not of this world...are we? And so let us answer - not from the perspective of this broken and fallen world, but from our posture and position of an adopted Son or Daughter of our Heavenly Father. Our "incomparable riches" come not from a life of worldly gain - but from His power made pefect in weakness. For it is in His Grace we find "incomparable riches" and "because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in our sin!" [Ephesians 2:4, NIV]
We are rich because of the death and resurrection of His One and Only Son! Our Lord and Savior - though fully God, fully man and fully innocent - carried the sin the whole world [including yours and mine] on His back, was nailed to the Cross, died and rose again - and in this expression of God's Love extended unmerited and unconditional Grace to you and me so that we may be made right with God...pure, holy and set free from our sin...through Christ Jesus alone! He is the only way, the only truth and the only life - and in Him lay hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge...and the incomparable riches of God's Grace, Love and Freedom! And in our weakness - His Power is made perfect - and His Grace is sufficient!
Move Update:
And that is where we are at today...the adversity, struggle, preparation in the "wilderness" has worn us out and has intensified! We are truly exhausted and are broken clay jars! Don't get me wrong - it truly was an incredible weekend of teaching, renewal and prayer at the Cove for this guy - and an awesome weekend full of "restoration" for Kel and the kids at her mom and dad's...but we received yet another "blow" and scheme from the enemy over the weekend. I am not going to begin lying now...it is tough right now...and we would not be vertical, if it were not for the riches found in His Grace and Mercy in our lives. We don't know how He is going to work out this home deal and move - but we stand firm that "Our God will supply all our needs according to the riches in glory in Christ Jesus!" [Philippians 4:19]
After getting back from the Cove - I touched base with Stan yesterday, when he informed me there is yet another set back in the purchase of the home they desire to buy, and yet another delay in their move - and now, they are not sure "when" they will be moving. And of course the enemy is desperately trying to sow a seed of doubt - and lie to us that "we can't wait". But our response is simple: "Really? Are you kidding me?" For this whole time of preparation has been about God teaching us to trust His timing - and find strength as we wait and hold upon the Lord! That is what the life of Jackson is about...waiting on the divine healing, provision and deliverance found in the incomparable riches of God's Grace, Love and Mercy! And even though the enemy continues to bring these wicked schemes, we know this is not our battle, but the Lords...but it still is tough to discern and continue to walk by faith and not by sight!
And after a long day of confusion, bewilderment, and perplexing conversations - Kelly and I cried it out last night! We both hate to cry...but, we could not hold back the tears! We cried for more than an hour and half in sheer silence...and begged God not to turn a deaf ear - just as David did in Psalm 28 - and that He would release, provide and deliver us! We are 9 weeks out ya'll from the birth of Jackson...can you believe that...and our backs are up against the wall, right now! We are truly between a rock and a hard place - as Tony Evans would put it!
There is no doubt that Stan and Karen's home on Sahara Drive is the home God has led us to...and the schemes of the enemy only affirm that Promise! For when the enemy attacks...it means you are "advancing the ball" in the Kingdom of God - and that is the last thing the enemy wants to see and experience! And oh how foolish we are to think the enemy even has any power in this...for he is only a giant that falls at the perfect placement of weak small stone and the weak shout of righteous men walking around a fortified city - only by the Grace of God!
So we lean in to His Word and His Promise that He will provide and deliver! His plan...His provision - that is the Kingdom dynamic! Don't know where, when and how it is all going to play out...but we Trust that it will - because the Holy Spirit has clearly laid this home on our hearts as a place for the advancement of His ministry and life to be launched - and man are we ever excited!
So we surrendered and laid it all at the Foot of His Cross and Throne of His Grace last night as we cried out to our Savior, Master and Lord! He is with us wherever we go - and in Him we embrace the "incomparable riches" of Love, Mercy and Provision - because of His Amazing Grace! He calls us to get up...get going...and not to be afraid or discouraged! "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." [2 Timothy 1:7, NKJV]
And so I plead with you to please pray - right now - in the way the Holy Spirit guides and directs you! Stand firm on the Promise found in His Word...that "the earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results!" [James 5:16, NLT]
Lord, we confess our sin to you...and it is not about us or this house...but it is all about you! Lord - Glorify Your Name today, and thank you - for the "incomparable riches" that are contained, expressed and demonstrated in your Grace! Help us right now, Lord - do not turn a deaf ear...for we are your people crying out in desperation for provision, guidance and wisdom that you Promise in your Son, our Savior - Christ Jesus!
All Eyes on Jesus...
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness!" [2 Corinthians 12:9, NIV, emphasis added]
"Incomparable riches"...it begs to ask the question, doesn't it? A question that many times is swept under the rug - never to be discussed? Hidden in a drawer - never to be open? Buried in a grave - in the secret life of pleasure and gain of worldly possessions...but a soul that is lost forever!
So let me ask it...Are - we - rich?
Over the weekend - I had the awesome opportunity and privilege of attending a weekend seminar with Chip Ingram at the Billy Graham Training Center at the Cove in Asheville, NC - and this is the question Chip threw out during his Saturday afternoon teaching. It was tough, direct, and cut to the souls of many sitting in the room. It was uncomfortable at times for many - including this guy - to hear the Truth and allow the Holy Spirit to examine, speak, reveal, correct and equip our minds, souls and hearts in gaining an answer to a very powerful question: Are we rich?
Immediately our minds may think of wealth, status, image, power, influence, or the worldly possessions that one is/has gathered in the conquest of becoming rich. But, we are not of this world...are we? And so let us answer - not from the perspective of this broken and fallen world, but from our posture and position of an adopted Son or Daughter of our Heavenly Father. Our "incomparable riches" come not from a life of worldly gain - but from His power made pefect in weakness. For it is in His Grace we find "incomparable riches" and "because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in our sin!" [Ephesians 2:4, NIV]
We are rich because of the death and resurrection of His One and Only Son! Our Lord and Savior - though fully God, fully man and fully innocent - carried the sin the whole world [including yours and mine] on His back, was nailed to the Cross, died and rose again - and in this expression of God's Love extended unmerited and unconditional Grace to you and me so that we may be made right with God...pure, holy and set free from our sin...through Christ Jesus alone! He is the only way, the only truth and the only life - and in Him lay hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge...and the incomparable riches of God's Grace, Love and Freedom! And in our weakness - His Power is made perfect - and His Grace is sufficient!
Move Update:
And that is where we are at today...the adversity, struggle, preparation in the "wilderness" has worn us out and has intensified! We are truly exhausted and are broken clay jars! Don't get me wrong - it truly was an incredible weekend of teaching, renewal and prayer at the Cove for this guy - and an awesome weekend full of "restoration" for Kel and the kids at her mom and dad's...but we received yet another "blow" and scheme from the enemy over the weekend. I am not going to begin lying now...it is tough right now...and we would not be vertical, if it were not for the riches found in His Grace and Mercy in our lives. We don't know how He is going to work out this home deal and move - but we stand firm that "Our God will supply all our needs according to the riches in glory in Christ Jesus!" [Philippians 4:19]
After getting back from the Cove - I touched base with Stan yesterday, when he informed me there is yet another set back in the purchase of the home they desire to buy, and yet another delay in their move - and now, they are not sure "when" they will be moving. And of course the enemy is desperately trying to sow a seed of doubt - and lie to us that "we can't wait". But our response is simple: "Really? Are you kidding me?" For this whole time of preparation has been about God teaching us to trust His timing - and find strength as we wait and hold upon the Lord! That is what the life of Jackson is about...waiting on the divine healing, provision and deliverance found in the incomparable riches of God's Grace, Love and Mercy! And even though the enemy continues to bring these wicked schemes, we know this is not our battle, but the Lords...but it still is tough to discern and continue to walk by faith and not by sight!
And after a long day of confusion, bewilderment, and perplexing conversations - Kelly and I cried it out last night! We both hate to cry...but, we could not hold back the tears! We cried for more than an hour and half in sheer silence...and begged God not to turn a deaf ear - just as David did in Psalm 28 - and that He would release, provide and deliver us! We are 9 weeks out ya'll from the birth of Jackson...can you believe that...and our backs are up against the wall, right now! We are truly between a rock and a hard place - as Tony Evans would put it!
There is no doubt that Stan and Karen's home on Sahara Drive is the home God has led us to...and the schemes of the enemy only affirm that Promise! For when the enemy attacks...it means you are "advancing the ball" in the Kingdom of God - and that is the last thing the enemy wants to see and experience! And oh how foolish we are to think the enemy even has any power in this...for he is only a giant that falls at the perfect placement of weak small stone and the weak shout of righteous men walking around a fortified city - only by the Grace of God!
So we lean in to His Word and His Promise that He will provide and deliver! His plan...His provision - that is the Kingdom dynamic! Don't know where, when and how it is all going to play out...but we Trust that it will - because the Holy Spirit has clearly laid this home on our hearts as a place for the advancement of His ministry and life to be launched - and man are we ever excited!
So we surrendered and laid it all at the Foot of His Cross and Throne of His Grace last night as we cried out to our Savior, Master and Lord! He is with us wherever we go - and in Him we embrace the "incomparable riches" of Love, Mercy and Provision - because of His Amazing Grace! He calls us to get up...get going...and not to be afraid or discouraged! "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." [2 Timothy 1:7, NKJV]
And so I plead with you to please pray - right now - in the way the Holy Spirit guides and directs you! Stand firm on the Promise found in His Word...that "the earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results!" [James 5:16, NLT]
Lord, we confess our sin to you...and it is not about us or this house...but it is all about you! Lord - Glorify Your Name today, and thank you - for the "incomparable riches" that are contained, expressed and demonstrated in your Grace! Help us right now, Lord - do not turn a deaf ear...for we are your people crying out in desperation for provision, guidance and wisdom that you Promise in your Son, our Savior - Christ Jesus!
All Eyes on Jesus...
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
It's "go" time...
"If we could only look upon a difficult crisis as an occasion of bringing out, on our behalf, the sufficiency of divine grace, it would enable us to preserve the balance of our souls and to glorify God, even in the deepest of waters!" [C. H. Mackintosh]
Now the LORD spoke to Moses, saying: “Speak to the children of Israel, that they turn and camp...by the sea. For Pharaoh will say of the children of Israel, ‘They are bewildered by the land; the wilderness has closed them in.’ Then I will harden Pharaoh’s heart, so that he will pursue them; and I will gain honor over Pharaoh and over all his army, that the Egyptians may know that I am the LORD.” [Exodus 14:1-4, NKJV, emphasis added]
It is often hard for us to imagine, grasp and accept that the LORD has led us to the depths of our crisis, adversity, difficulty and "deepest of waters". That He would ask us to "turn and camp" by that struggle, so that He could choreograph what appears to be sure destruction and death - with no way out! That He - Our God of Love, Grace, Mercy and Compassion - would harden a heart...
And many times when we are face to face with crisis - the diagnosis of an incurable cancer, a child in trouble, a relationship on the brink of destruction, disappointment in the actions, thoughts and/or words of a boyfriend, girlfriend, spouse, neighbor or family member, the legal battle, the loss of a job or the shattering of a dream - our natural reaction is to ask...
How in the world did I get myself into this mess? What can I do to fix this problem - quickly? Why did this have to happen to me?
And we find ourselves in a moment of spiritual crisis...don't we?
But instead of asking "How can I get out of this mess?"...fix your eyes on Jesus and allow him to transform your perspective and posture by renewing your mind through the Truth that is found in this response: How can God be Glorified in this situation? This dilemma? This tragedy? This Journey?
For the LORD said...
"I will be honoured..." [KJV]
"I will gain glory for myself ..." [NIV]
"I have planned this in order to display my glory through Pharaoh and his whole army." [NLT]
And "why" did He deliberately order, orchestrate and choreograph this journey, adversity, struggle, time of preparation in the wilderness and deepest of waters...so that I [we], you and generations to come..."will know that [He is] the LORD." [Exodus 14:3-4] And to HIM alone be the Glory!
Move/House Update: The Step of Faith...
So here is the quote from Oswald Chambers that moved and "rocked" us so deeply to step out "by Faith" yesterday morning during our devotion/prayer time:
The greatest spiritual crisis comes when a person has to move a little farther on in his faith than the beliefs he has already accepted!
There is a definitive relationship between our beliefs and faith - and there is crisis, struggle, adversity and growth when our faith forces to step where our beliefs are not yet already! It is the all sufficient Grace and Peace of God, the Freedom and Strength of our Lord - Christ Jesus, and the Indwelling and Outflow of the Holy Spirit that encourages, prompts and leads us to be obedient, courageous and persevere! And that is exactly what we must do - right now! Obedience and Perseverance are key! And I don't know about you...but I am exhausted, spent, worn out and weary...and pleading for release!
And just in case you are getting caught up or just now learning of the journey regarding our move...two weeks ago, following a moment of God "closing the door" on what appeared to be great rental situation, He led us to the "Promise Land" and to a home that held every detail He promised more than 6 months ago. After 38 days in our current "preparation experience" and hearing the news of God closing the door on renting...Kelly's mom and dad were prompted to spend four hours searching through communities for homes in the Butler, PA area - without our knowing. Kelly and I prayed so intensely over the weekend of August 29th and 30th! And God gave us great Peace, Clarity, Unity and Promise of Provision on a home in the Meridian area, without anyone knowing. I must say - it was great weekend of prayer and fasting between Kel, I and the Lord!
Kelly's mom and dad talked with us the following Monday, August 31 - the 40th day since the sale of our home - and asked us to call on three homes they had found during their Saturday afternoon drive. We followed their lead and called - one was not an option, one is in foreclosure and needing $50,000 plus dollars needed in repairs before even moving in with water damage, and the one owned by Stan and Karen - in Meridian! Obviously, God had our attention!
I was so overwhelmed by the conviction/prompting of the Holy Spirit's... that Kel and I got in the car and started the 40min drive after leaving just a voicemail. Karen returned our call 15 minutes into the drive...when God started to reveal His Glory! Here we found out that Karen and Kelly are actually distant cousins, grew up in the same small country town outside of Parker, PA (which happens to be the smallest city in the US - for all you trivia buffs), went to the same church growing up - but did not know each other due to their age and journeys, and currently attend the same church as Kelly's Grandma and Aunt. How amazing is our God? Then as we were going through the home - that is absolutely more than anything Kel and I ever could have dreamed of or asked for - we found out that Karen has Aortic Stenosis, the same rare heart condition as Jackson! And after two months of praying/searching for the genetic connection - here she stands in front us - in the home God has lead us to! Come on ya'll - can God make it any more clearer?
He does...my Managing Director, great friend and wise counsel shared with me more than 4 months ago to pray specifically for a FROG (that would be a Finished Room Over the Garage as they refer to it in the South) so that we are able to function more efficiently and effectively out of the home for ministry and life! Working from home has been a huge adjustment and point of transition over the last year, and feeling the call to be more "mobile" and able to travel, speak, and encourage the Body of Christ - this home (fully equipped with a FROG) provides an ample amount of space, security and sanctuary to be able to be mobile and also to do "life and ministry" together in community - which has been a specific prayer of our hearts in this journey! This is not about a house for Kelly and Doug - but this is a home where the Gospel and Life will be mobilized - period! And man were we excited...I mean - who ever would have "thunk it" that after following the prompting of the Holy Spirit in hearts to put our home on the market without even knowing "where", it then being under contract three hours later. Then the finding of Jackson's fatal heart defect, and a miracle surgery to give him the best chance of a full and abundant "physical life" this side of heaven, being successful within hours of closing on our home on July 24th! Then being led into a wilderness experience to be prepared in ways never imagined for 40 days, and delivering us in a home that is overflowing with Promise! Then we found out there is another couple wanting the home, bringing an offer after ours, and that Stan and Karen were led to take 7 days to pray - after both offers were recieved - and make the decision based on the Lord's prompting. And during the seven days of prayer - the enemy came on a full frontal attack! He tried to get us to not only see, but fear the financial giants that stood in the way - and worry and doubt God's Promise and Provision! The enemy also brought a wicked scheme upon Karen and Stan with the home they intended to purchase through indirect communication, and a "false reality" that the deal they were getting was "too good to be true"!
But after two full weeks of prayer and petition, Stan called me Monday to share the following news...
Stan and Karen have prayed, and with a great sense of unity, have decided to accept our offer, and that they are moving forward "with caution" on the purchase of the home they have been led to by the Lord! I can't even begin to tell you of the excitement we are experiencing...but - enter in spiritual crisis! And here is the question and moment of stepping out - is our Faith in Finances, or is our Faith in the Lord, Jesus Christ...that He IS Jehovah Jireh, that He will Provide as Promised! And man...if we though the last two weeks of prayer were intense - the last two days have been off the hook! Prayer, Counsel and Trust...are the keys to Walking with the Wise and By Faith...and we must not Trust the ways of this world and lean on our own understanding of "how" He will provide...but must Trust that He will! Period.
We have looked at so many homes - that are a temptation and appear to be a better "move" in the world's perspective...but when viewed through Wisdom and the Eyes of God - hold only lies, fear and deception!
So...with clear conviction, and an overwhelming sense of Peace and Unity...Kelly and I are moving out on the Promises of God in this Home on Sahara Drive - lest we forget! And now is the time...for such a time is this! Lord - release us, and pour out your blessing - so that you ALONE may be Glorified! For we believe -that you have tried us only to increase our faith, and that it is all in Love...and if You are Glorified, we are content!
Give thanks to the Lord, For He Is Good! For His faithful love endures forever...
To Him Alone does great Wonders! For His faithful love endures forever...
To Him who divided the Red Sea in two! For His faithful love endures forever...
But overthrew Pharaoh and His Army in the Red Sea! For His faithful love endures forever...
Let us forever Stand firm and Move out on the Promises of Psalm 136! I don't know how He is going to orchestrate His deliverance, provision and release...but I know He will, and I open the door - why, because He tells me: "Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me. To him who overcomes, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I overcame and sat down with my Father on his throne. He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches." [Revelation 3:20-21]
Do you hear His voice...then open up the door and let Him into your heart forever more! He will make a way when there seems to be no way - for He led us in, and He will lead us out! Come on church...let's go!
All Eyes on Jesus!
Now the LORD spoke to Moses, saying: “Speak to the children of Israel, that they turn and camp...by the sea. For Pharaoh will say of the children of Israel, ‘They are bewildered by the land; the wilderness has closed them in.’ Then I will harden Pharaoh’s heart, so that he will pursue them; and I will gain honor over Pharaoh and over all his army, that the Egyptians may know that I am the LORD.” [Exodus 14:1-4, NKJV, emphasis added]
It is often hard for us to imagine, grasp and accept that the LORD has led us to the depths of our crisis, adversity, difficulty and "deepest of waters". That He would ask us to "turn and camp" by that struggle, so that He could choreograph what appears to be sure destruction and death - with no way out! That He - Our God of Love, Grace, Mercy and Compassion - would harden a heart...
And many times when we are face to face with crisis - the diagnosis of an incurable cancer, a child in trouble, a relationship on the brink of destruction, disappointment in the actions, thoughts and/or words of a boyfriend, girlfriend, spouse, neighbor or family member, the legal battle, the loss of a job or the shattering of a dream - our natural reaction is to ask...
How in the world did I get myself into this mess? What can I do to fix this problem - quickly? Why did this have to happen to me?
And we find ourselves in a moment of spiritual crisis...don't we?
But instead of asking "How can I get out of this mess?"...fix your eyes on Jesus and allow him to transform your perspective and posture by renewing your mind through the Truth that is found in this response: How can God be Glorified in this situation? This dilemma? This tragedy? This Journey?
For the LORD said...
"I will be honoured..." [KJV]
"I will gain glory for myself ..." [NIV]
"I have planned this in order to display my glory through Pharaoh and his whole army." [NLT]
And "why" did He deliberately order, orchestrate and choreograph this journey, adversity, struggle, time of preparation in the wilderness and deepest of waters...so that I [we], you and generations to come..."will know that [He is] the LORD." [Exodus 14:3-4] And to HIM alone be the Glory!
Move/House Update: The Step of Faith...
So here is the quote from Oswald Chambers that moved and "rocked" us so deeply to step out "by Faith" yesterday morning during our devotion/prayer time:
The greatest spiritual crisis comes when a person has to move a little farther on in his faith than the beliefs he has already accepted!
There is a definitive relationship between our beliefs and faith - and there is crisis, struggle, adversity and growth when our faith forces to step where our beliefs are not yet already! It is the all sufficient Grace and Peace of God, the Freedom and Strength of our Lord - Christ Jesus, and the Indwelling and Outflow of the Holy Spirit that encourages, prompts and leads us to be obedient, courageous and persevere! And that is exactly what we must do - right now! Obedience and Perseverance are key! And I don't know about you...but I am exhausted, spent, worn out and weary...and pleading for release!
And just in case you are getting caught up or just now learning of the journey regarding our move...two weeks ago, following a moment of God "closing the door" on what appeared to be great rental situation, He led us to the "Promise Land" and to a home that held every detail He promised more than 6 months ago. After 38 days in our current "preparation experience" and hearing the news of God closing the door on renting...Kelly's mom and dad were prompted to spend four hours searching through communities for homes in the Butler, PA area - without our knowing. Kelly and I prayed so intensely over the weekend of August 29th and 30th! And God gave us great Peace, Clarity, Unity and Promise of Provision on a home in the Meridian area, without anyone knowing. I must say - it was great weekend of prayer and fasting between Kel, I and the Lord!
Kelly's mom and dad talked with us the following Monday, August 31 - the 40th day since the sale of our home - and asked us to call on three homes they had found during their Saturday afternoon drive. We followed their lead and called - one was not an option, one is in foreclosure and needing $50,000 plus dollars needed in repairs before even moving in with water damage, and the one owned by Stan and Karen - in Meridian! Obviously, God had our attention!
I was so overwhelmed by the conviction/prompting of the Holy Spirit's... that Kel and I got in the car and started the 40min drive after leaving just a voicemail. Karen returned our call 15 minutes into the drive...when God started to reveal His Glory! Here we found out that Karen and Kelly are actually distant cousins, grew up in the same small country town outside of Parker, PA (which happens to be the smallest city in the US - for all you trivia buffs), went to the same church growing up - but did not know each other due to their age and journeys, and currently attend the same church as Kelly's Grandma and Aunt. How amazing is our God? Then as we were going through the home - that is absolutely more than anything Kel and I ever could have dreamed of or asked for - we found out that Karen has Aortic Stenosis, the same rare heart condition as Jackson! And after two months of praying/searching for the genetic connection - here she stands in front us - in the home God has lead us to! Come on ya'll - can God make it any more clearer?
He does...my Managing Director, great friend and wise counsel shared with me more than 4 months ago to pray specifically for a FROG (that would be a Finished Room Over the Garage as they refer to it in the South) so that we are able to function more efficiently and effectively out of the home for ministry and life! Working from home has been a huge adjustment and point of transition over the last year, and feeling the call to be more "mobile" and able to travel, speak, and encourage the Body of Christ - this home (fully equipped with a FROG) provides an ample amount of space, security and sanctuary to be able to be mobile and also to do "life and ministry" together in community - which has been a specific prayer of our hearts in this journey! This is not about a house for Kelly and Doug - but this is a home where the Gospel and Life will be mobilized - period! And man were we excited...I mean - who ever would have "thunk it" that after following the prompting of the Holy Spirit in hearts to put our home on the market without even knowing "where", it then being under contract three hours later. Then the finding of Jackson's fatal heart defect, and a miracle surgery to give him the best chance of a full and abundant "physical life" this side of heaven, being successful within hours of closing on our home on July 24th! Then being led into a wilderness experience to be prepared in ways never imagined for 40 days, and delivering us in a home that is overflowing with Promise! Then we found out there is another couple wanting the home, bringing an offer after ours, and that Stan and Karen were led to take 7 days to pray - after both offers were recieved - and make the decision based on the Lord's prompting. And during the seven days of prayer - the enemy came on a full frontal attack! He tried to get us to not only see, but fear the financial giants that stood in the way - and worry and doubt God's Promise and Provision! The enemy also brought a wicked scheme upon Karen and Stan with the home they intended to purchase through indirect communication, and a "false reality" that the deal they were getting was "too good to be true"!
But after two full weeks of prayer and petition, Stan called me Monday to share the following news...
Stan and Karen have prayed, and with a great sense of unity, have decided to accept our offer, and that they are moving forward "with caution" on the purchase of the home they have been led to by the Lord! I can't even begin to tell you of the excitement we are experiencing...but - enter in spiritual crisis! And here is the question and moment of stepping out - is our Faith in Finances, or is our Faith in the Lord, Jesus Christ...that He IS Jehovah Jireh, that He will Provide as Promised! And man...if we though the last two weeks of prayer were intense - the last two days have been off the hook! Prayer, Counsel and Trust...are the keys to Walking with the Wise and By Faith...and we must not Trust the ways of this world and lean on our own understanding of "how" He will provide...but must Trust that He will! Period.
We have looked at so many homes - that are a temptation and appear to be a better "move" in the world's perspective...but when viewed through Wisdom and the Eyes of God - hold only lies, fear and deception!
So...with clear conviction, and an overwhelming sense of Peace and Unity...Kelly and I are moving out on the Promises of God in this Home on Sahara Drive - lest we forget! And now is the time...for such a time is this! Lord - release us, and pour out your blessing - so that you ALONE may be Glorified! For we believe -that you have tried us only to increase our faith, and that it is all in Love...and if You are Glorified, we are content!
Give thanks to the Lord, For He Is Good! For His faithful love endures forever...
To Him Alone does great Wonders! For His faithful love endures forever...
To Him who divided the Red Sea in two! For His faithful love endures forever...
But overthrew Pharaoh and His Army in the Red Sea! For His faithful love endures forever...
Let us forever Stand firm and Move out on the Promises of Psalm 136! I don't know how He is going to orchestrate His deliverance, provision and release...but I know He will, and I open the door - why, because He tells me: "Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me. To him who overcomes, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I overcame and sat down with my Father on his throne. He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches." [Revelation 3:20-21]
Do you hear His voice...then open up the door and let Him into your heart forever more! He will make a way when there seems to be no way - for He led us in, and He will lead us out! Come on church...let's go!
All Eyes on Jesus!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Open me, Lord...
Would you open up my eyes, so I can see!
Would you open up my ears, so I can hear!
Would you open up my mind, so I can know!
Would you open up my heart, so I can love you more!
I want to serve you my God, I want to give you everything!
I want to serve you my King!
I want to serve you my Lord, I want to give you everything!
Here I am with my arms open wide, asking for you Lord to come up inside..
Won't you make me new, won't you make me true?
Jesus won't you make me more like you?
Open me, Lord...Open me!
[Lyrics by Shawn McDonald, Open Me]
These lyrics have been a consistent prayer over the last three years of my life! "Won't you open me...open my eyes, open my ears, open my mind, open my heart, Lord" and I can't even begin to tell you of the impact, the response, the renewal, the movement, the transformation in my life as the Holy Spirit guides, directs, prompts and leads in my life and our family...but I must tell you - this morning...it is our heart's cry!
We are exhausted, worn out, physically in pain. Kel is having a hard time sleeping and getting comfortable now and continues to work through the emotions of "nesting"...and the "uncertainty" of the move/home has intensified! And the "HOLD" that we are currently in...is more difficult than what it was just a few days ago! BUT GOD - and yes, even though He continues to call us deeper into this "hold" moment - and it is tough ya'll - His Peace, Strength and Grace overwhelm us!
As we met/talked with our wise counsel over the last several days - the lyrics above continue to guide our prayers and conversations in ways we never imagined possible! But God is a God of impossibilities - now isn't He? And we continue to just pray simply - "open me"! And as I sat before incredible men of faith over breakfast, lunch, cups of coffee and shared intense conversations over the phone that spoke truth, encouragement, wisdom and hope into our journey - and one specific conversation in the "freezer section" of Wal-Mart with a dear friend and an amazing woman of faith - this one line continues to be our prayer focus..."Jesus make me more like you!"
That is it...that is what the journeys of our life are all about - that He would make us more like himself! I mean come on...we have "heard" this before, but have we really embraced it! That in every moment, every circumstance, every storm, every conversation, and every prayer that we would ask Him to make us more like Himself? Because the truth is...The same God who led you and me IN will lead us OUT - even when and where there seems to be no way! He knows the footsteps, the doors, the "unseen" and never before traveled path or "highway" across the river! But, we must continue to walk in obedience to His Will...and that is why prayer must be our foundation - for it is our "lifeline" - and it must always be a two way conversation! For He is Wisdom! He is Strength! He is Peace! He is Hope and our Future! And we must be willing to be still, silent, and listen before His throne...even when the world around us may call us crazy and is not willing to stop!
And right now...that is where we remain...in prayer! Truly, there is no update to share regarding the home situation - other than we have not heard from Stan and Karen in the last 4 days, as they are trying to work out some of the details regarding their "move" and the purchase of a home. At this point - we don't know where things stand...and it is all good! It is hard, and yes the emotion, desire, longing for a place of our own gets stronger every minute! But - deliverance and provision is in God's perfect timing, not ours! So we continue to wait...and I beg of you to please continue to pray for peace, strength and patience in this wait!
So today...we are heading out for a picnic on this beautiful day - just the four of us - before I speak tonight at a worship event at the First Church of God in Kittanning, PA! And please...pray for the young lives and families that will be gathering tonight! Pray that God would continue to stir in their heart, draw them closer and that every word spoken tonight would not be mine - but that of the Holy Spirit! Open me, Lord...
I hope that you have had an awesome weekend...and keep those eyes on Jesus!
Would you open up my ears, so I can hear!
Would you open up my mind, so I can know!
Would you open up my heart, so I can love you more!
I want to serve you my God, I want to give you everything!
I want to serve you my King!
I want to serve you my Lord, I want to give you everything!
Here I am with my arms open wide, asking for you Lord to come up inside..
Won't you make me new, won't you make me true?
Jesus won't you make me more like you?
Open me, Lord...Open me!
[Lyrics by Shawn McDonald, Open Me]
These lyrics have been a consistent prayer over the last three years of my life! "Won't you open me...open my eyes, open my ears, open my mind, open my heart, Lord" and I can't even begin to tell you of the impact, the response, the renewal, the movement, the transformation in my life as the Holy Spirit guides, directs, prompts and leads in my life and our family...but I must tell you - this morning...it is our heart's cry!
We are exhausted, worn out, physically in pain. Kel is having a hard time sleeping and getting comfortable now and continues to work through the emotions of "nesting"...and the "uncertainty" of the move/home has intensified! And the "HOLD" that we are currently in...is more difficult than what it was just a few days ago! BUT GOD - and yes, even though He continues to call us deeper into this "hold" moment - and it is tough ya'll - His Peace, Strength and Grace overwhelm us!
As we met/talked with our wise counsel over the last several days - the lyrics above continue to guide our prayers and conversations in ways we never imagined possible! But God is a God of impossibilities - now isn't He? And we continue to just pray simply - "open me"! And as I sat before incredible men of faith over breakfast, lunch, cups of coffee and shared intense conversations over the phone that spoke truth, encouragement, wisdom and hope into our journey - and one specific conversation in the "freezer section" of Wal-Mart with a dear friend and an amazing woman of faith - this one line continues to be our prayer focus..."Jesus make me more like you!"
That is it...that is what the journeys of our life are all about - that He would make us more like himself! I mean come on...we have "heard" this before, but have we really embraced it! That in every moment, every circumstance, every storm, every conversation, and every prayer that we would ask Him to make us more like Himself? Because the truth is...The same God who led you and me IN will lead us OUT - even when and where there seems to be no way! He knows the footsteps, the doors, the "unseen" and never before traveled path or "highway" across the river! But, we must continue to walk in obedience to His Will...and that is why prayer must be our foundation - for it is our "lifeline" - and it must always be a two way conversation! For He is Wisdom! He is Strength! He is Peace! He is Hope and our Future! And we must be willing to be still, silent, and listen before His throne...even when the world around us may call us crazy and is not willing to stop!
And right now...that is where we remain...in prayer! Truly, there is no update to share regarding the home situation - other than we have not heard from Stan and Karen in the last 4 days, as they are trying to work out some of the details regarding their "move" and the purchase of a home. At this point - we don't know where things stand...and it is all good! It is hard, and yes the emotion, desire, longing for a place of our own gets stronger every minute! But - deliverance and provision is in God's perfect timing, not ours! So we continue to wait...and I beg of you to please continue to pray for peace, strength and patience in this wait!
So today...we are heading out for a picnic on this beautiful day - just the four of us - before I speak tonight at a worship event at the First Church of God in Kittanning, PA! And please...pray for the young lives and families that will be gathering tonight! Pray that God would continue to stir in their heart, draw them closer and that every word spoken tonight would not be mine - but that of the Holy Spirit! Open me, Lord...
I hope that you have had an awesome weekend...and keep those eyes on Jesus!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Only Two...
"Then the whole community began weeping aloud, and they cried all night. Their voices rose in a great chorus of protest against Moses and Aaron. “If only we had died in Egypt, or even here in the wilderness!” they complained. “Why is the Lord taking us to this country only to have us die in battle? Our wives and our little ones will be carried off as plunder! Wouldn’t it be better for us to return to Egypt?” Then they plotted among themselves, “Let’s choose a new leader and go back to Egypt!”
Then Moses and Aaron fell face down on the ground before the whole community of Israel. Two of the men who had explored the land, Joshua son of Nun and Caleb son of Jephunneh, tore their clothing. They [ Joshua and Caleb] said to all the people of Israel, “The land we traveled through and explored is a wonderful land! And if the Lord is pleased with us, he will bring us safely into that land and give it to us. It is a rich land flowing with milk and honey. Do not rebel against the Lord, and don’t be afraid of the people of the land. They are only helpless prey to us! They have no protection, but the Lord is with us! Don’t be afraid of them!”
But the whole community began to talk about stoning Joshua and Caleb. Then the glorious presence of the Lord appeared to all the Israelites at the Tabernacle. And the Lord said to Moses, “How long will these people treat me with contempt? Will they never believe me, even after all the miraculous signs I have done among them? I will disown them and destroy them with a plague. Then I will make you into a nation greater and mightier than they are!” [Numbers 14:1-12, NLT]
Amazing how similar the communities response is to thier moment at the bank of the Red Sea, and now here they at the foot of the flooded Jordan, and the only thing that they see standing between them and the Promise - are giants! Are you kidding me...did they not even notice the river? Forget about the giants destroying you, what about the power of God's creation! Guess they were experiential learners...but, where is their wisdom?
For it is not by knowledge or understanding that Noah built an Ark when it was not raining; that Daniel entered into a den of Lions; that Nehemiah or Esther went before the King; that David flung a smooth stone from a sling shot killing Goliath; that a Tax collector became a disciple or a persecutor of Christians became an apostle; that a martyr endured stoning while fixing his eyes on Jesus and begging his murderers forgiveness; that Christ took the sin of the world on his shoulders and was nailed to The Cross on Calvary. But..."It is because of him [the Lord] that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption." [1 Corinthians 1:30]
There is no doubt - that the Spirit led us into this time of preparation, growth, struggle, adversity, uncertainty, sickness, wonder and miracle; providing us with strength, peace, and unity in this "desert or wilderness" through the grace, mercy, life, love, power, glory and majesty of Christ alone! And we must not begin to walk by sight now...but continue to take steps of great faith as we "get our feet wet" yet again and follow the prompting of the Holy Spirit in our lives!
The House/Move Update:
So you ask - why no "blog" for a week...because we were in prayer ya'll! Remember - prayer is a two way conversation: meaning we have to listen as well talk! And for those of us who love to talk...we must learn to love "listening" just as much!
Let me be transparent with you for a second...no doubt - there are some giants in the land of Promise...and they even have names! Mrs. Mae, Mr. Citizens, Dr. Pilot..and others yet unknown...maybe Mr. UPMC...but our Faith is not in our finances! Our Faith is in the Lord Jesus Christ alone! And this is the land pf Promise that He has led us to - and there is great unity and peace. Our eyes do not deceive us here - but our hearts can! The illusion and deception of our sinful nature - does not lie in our eyes, but in the motivation of our hearts! And many times - we must let our heads lead our hearts! And that is exactly what we must do right now...our minds have been renewed by the Living Word...and I don't want to turn back and die in the desert or Egypt!
Do I know "how" He is going to deliver us in the Promise - nope! And neither did Joshua and Caleb - for it was not by understanding that they walked around a city 7 days, shouted and the walls came tumbling down! We may not know "how" He is going to provide and deliver - but we have absolute conviction that He will! We must not walk by "understanding", but by Faith in the Wisdom of God, who promised Living Water to guide, lead, teach, comfort, provide and protect us!
Is there unbelief...what do you think we have been praying about! Our hearts cry has been the following: "Lord - help our unbelief! Let us continue to stand on your Promises, be obedient to your guidance and follow your will, purpose and plan for our lives! Let us walk in Your Wisdom and not the knowledge of this world, giving us the eyes of Joshua and Caleb as we follow you in the Land of Promise that is overflowing with milk and honey [aka: space, security, stability, family, community, retreat, refuge, sanctuary and a ton of ministry opportunities!]. Heavenly Father - pour out your peace, strength, provision and unity in our lives so that we may be strong and courageous and Trust in you alone - for it is your command—be strong and courageous! not to be afraid or discouraged. For you are with us wherever we go.” [Joshua 1:9]
Thus the reason for a quick plea/writing to you all this morning! I spoke with Stan yesterday evening - after our 7 days of prayer - and there are still some more "pieces" that have to come together on their part - and ours. We must continue to cover thier family, home and move in prayer as well...and lean not on our own understanding, but Trust in the Lord! A more specific update regarding the "move" will hopefully come later this weekend, but please continue to be in prayer as we "wait" - unconditionally and unselfishly - upon the Lord's timing. And we must remain obedient to His Voice.
Kelly and Jackson are doing well - Kelly is feeling some of the "normalcy's" of being 7 months pregnant - Praise the Lord - and boy has Jackson ever made his presence known over the last week! Now when Kelly and I go to hug each other...we are belly to belly, before we are face to face! LOL...maybe that has a little to do with daddy's pregnancy too - I have just been waiting to deliver for the last three years! Please continue to pray for Jackson's left side to "squeeze" and the opportunity for Kelly to "nest" in our new home soon! We love you all...and ask that you continue to stand with us!
Remember...
"The Lord will continually guide you, and satisfy your desire." [Isaiah 58:11]
"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen." [Jeremiah 29:11-12]
"The Peace of God which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your heart and your minds in Christ Jesus." [Philippians 4:7]
"For I can do all things through Christ - who is my strength."
"My God will supply all your needs according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus." [Philippians 4:19]
"God has united you with Christ Jesus. For our benefit God made him to be wisdom itself. Christ made us right with God; he made us pure and holy, and he freed us from sin." [1 Corinthians 1:30]
Therefore, as it is written: "Let him who boasts boast in the Lord." [1 Corinthians 1:31]
All Eyes on Jesus!
Then Moses and Aaron fell face down on the ground before the whole community of Israel. Two of the men who had explored the land, Joshua son of Nun and Caleb son of Jephunneh, tore their clothing. They [ Joshua and Caleb] said to all the people of Israel, “The land we traveled through and explored is a wonderful land! And if the Lord is pleased with us, he will bring us safely into that land and give it to us. It is a rich land flowing with milk and honey. Do not rebel against the Lord, and don’t be afraid of the people of the land. They are only helpless prey to us! They have no protection, but the Lord is with us! Don’t be afraid of them!”
But the whole community began to talk about stoning Joshua and Caleb. Then the glorious presence of the Lord appeared to all the Israelites at the Tabernacle. And the Lord said to Moses, “How long will these people treat me with contempt? Will they never believe me, even after all the miraculous signs I have done among them? I will disown them and destroy them with a plague. Then I will make you into a nation greater and mightier than they are!” [Numbers 14:1-12, NLT]
Amazing how similar the communities response is to thier moment at the bank of the Red Sea, and now here they at the foot of the flooded Jordan, and the only thing that they see standing between them and the Promise - are giants! Are you kidding me...did they not even notice the river? Forget about the giants destroying you, what about the power of God's creation! Guess they were experiential learners...but, where is their wisdom?
For it is not by knowledge or understanding that Noah built an Ark when it was not raining; that Daniel entered into a den of Lions; that Nehemiah or Esther went before the King; that David flung a smooth stone from a sling shot killing Goliath; that a Tax collector became a disciple or a persecutor of Christians became an apostle; that a martyr endured stoning while fixing his eyes on Jesus and begging his murderers forgiveness; that Christ took the sin of the world on his shoulders and was nailed to The Cross on Calvary. But..."It is because of him [the Lord] that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption." [1 Corinthians 1:30]
There is no doubt - that the Spirit led us into this time of preparation, growth, struggle, adversity, uncertainty, sickness, wonder and miracle; providing us with strength, peace, and unity in this "desert or wilderness" through the grace, mercy, life, love, power, glory and majesty of Christ alone! And we must not begin to walk by sight now...but continue to take steps of great faith as we "get our feet wet" yet again and follow the prompting of the Holy Spirit in our lives!
The House/Move Update:
So you ask - why no "blog" for a week...because we were in prayer ya'll! Remember - prayer is a two way conversation: meaning we have to listen as well talk! And for those of us who love to talk...we must learn to love "listening" just as much!
Let me be transparent with you for a second...no doubt - there are some giants in the land of Promise...and they even have names! Mrs. Mae, Mr. Citizens, Dr. Pilot..and others yet unknown...maybe Mr. UPMC...but our Faith is not in our finances! Our Faith is in the Lord Jesus Christ alone! And this is the land pf Promise that He has led us to - and there is great unity and peace. Our eyes do not deceive us here - but our hearts can! The illusion and deception of our sinful nature - does not lie in our eyes, but in the motivation of our hearts! And many times - we must let our heads lead our hearts! And that is exactly what we must do right now...our minds have been renewed by the Living Word...and I don't want to turn back and die in the desert or Egypt!
Do I know "how" He is going to deliver us in the Promise - nope! And neither did Joshua and Caleb - for it was not by understanding that they walked around a city 7 days, shouted and the walls came tumbling down! We may not know "how" He is going to provide and deliver - but we have absolute conviction that He will! We must not walk by "understanding", but by Faith in the Wisdom of God, who promised Living Water to guide, lead, teach, comfort, provide and protect us!
Is there unbelief...what do you think we have been praying about! Our hearts cry has been the following: "Lord - help our unbelief! Let us continue to stand on your Promises, be obedient to your guidance and follow your will, purpose and plan for our lives! Let us walk in Your Wisdom and not the knowledge of this world, giving us the eyes of Joshua and Caleb as we follow you in the Land of Promise that is overflowing with milk and honey [aka: space, security, stability, family, community, retreat, refuge, sanctuary and a ton of ministry opportunities!]. Heavenly Father - pour out your peace, strength, provision and unity in our lives so that we may be strong and courageous and Trust in you alone - for it is your command—be strong and courageous! not to be afraid or discouraged. For you are with us wherever we go.” [Joshua 1:9]
Thus the reason for a quick plea/writing to you all this morning! I spoke with Stan yesterday evening - after our 7 days of prayer - and there are still some more "pieces" that have to come together on their part - and ours. We must continue to cover thier family, home and move in prayer as well...and lean not on our own understanding, but Trust in the Lord! A more specific update regarding the "move" will hopefully come later this weekend, but please continue to be in prayer as we "wait" - unconditionally and unselfishly - upon the Lord's timing. And we must remain obedient to His Voice.
Kelly and Jackson are doing well - Kelly is feeling some of the "normalcy's" of being 7 months pregnant - Praise the Lord - and boy has Jackson ever made his presence known over the last week! Now when Kelly and I go to hug each other...we are belly to belly, before we are face to face! LOL...maybe that has a little to do with daddy's pregnancy too - I have just been waiting to deliver for the last three years! Please continue to pray for Jackson's left side to "squeeze" and the opportunity for Kelly to "nest" in our new home soon! We love you all...and ask that you continue to stand with us!
Remember...
"The Lord will continually guide you, and satisfy your desire." [Isaiah 58:11]
"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen." [Jeremiah 29:11-12]
"The Peace of God which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your heart and your minds in Christ Jesus." [Philippians 4:7]
"For I can do all things through Christ - who is my strength."
"My God will supply all your needs according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus." [Philippians 4:19]
"God has united you with Christ Jesus. For our benefit God made him to be wisdom itself. Christ made us right with God; he made us pure and holy, and he freed us from sin." [1 Corinthians 1:30]
Therefore, as it is written: "Let him who boasts boast in the Lord." [1 Corinthians 1:31]
All Eyes on Jesus!
Friday, September 4, 2009
Uncharted waters...
"For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope!
May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus, so that with one heart and mouth you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ." [Romans 15:4-6, NIV, emphasis mine]
When Kelly and I took a step back yesterday morning to gaze at all that has occured in the last 8 weeks - it was overwhelming. From...
May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus, so that with one heart and mouth you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ." [Romans 15:4-6, NIV, emphasis mine]
When Kelly and I took a step back yesterday morning to gaze at all that has occured in the last 8 weeks - it was overwhelming. From...
- the Holy Spirit clearly prompting us to "get our feet wet" and prepare for a move, while having no idea "where" we were going.
- The 3 months of prayer and preparation that followed with our wise counsel, family and community to put our home on the market, and then it being under contract only 3 hours after the first showing!
- The finding of Jackson's fatal heart defect [Aortic Stenosis] three weeks later, during a routine ultrasound at 19 weeks - with only two weeks to go before closing on our home.
- The first successful "fetal aortic balloon valveoplasty" surgery in the history of Pittsburgh Children's hospital on Kelly and Jackson at 21.5 weeks, while closing on our home the same day within hours of each other
- The awesome team of Doctors [Speer, Emery and Sherman] that God assembled to be His Healing and Life Giving Hands!
- The Holy Spirit leading us into a place of "wilderness" for growth, unity and preparation for 40 days! For "what"? Only He knows!
- The development of an amazing network of "encouragers" in our lives - our prayer warriors, wise counsel, and sacrificial supporters that have expressed and demonstrated the Love, Grace, Care, Compassion, Provision and Mercy of our Heavenly Father - supplying our every need according to his riches - in glory - in Christ Jesus!
- The transformation in "agape" Waiting - unconditionally and unselfishly - in a time of great uncertainty with Christ - who is our Strength, Hope and Peace!
- The mental, physical and emotional exhaustion of the home search - that finally seems to have come to end with an incredible home that is more than anything we could have ever imagined - holding every detail of God's Promise given to us more than 7 months ago. A home of space, security and sanctuary in a community that provides stability through family, friends and fellowship of the Body, where we can do "life" and "ministry" together - advancing the Gospel and His Kingdom!
- The many opportunities He has prepared and presented to share God's story - which He is continuing to script, choreograph and reveal in His Perfect Timing - through Jackson, our move and each and every one of our lives!
And through it all - the overwhelming Peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, has guarded our hearts and minds in Christ Jesus - as we have fixed our Eyes upon the Living Water, and pursued His Promise in our Teacher and Comforter - the Holy Spirit! And I can't wait to get to heaven and see God's amusement park....because the ups, downs, lefts, rights, loops and sudden stops that occur here on earth are only a foretaste of what's to come - through the Eternal and Glorious Joy we will experience as we are in perfect relationship with our Creator through His Son our Lord and Savior - Christ Jesus! Buckle up...
Jackson Update:
As we traveled to the hospital yesterday morning - Kelly and I prepared as best we know how - through prayer, conversation, song and moments of "quiet and tears"! I have to tell you...the way that God has strengthened our marriage in unity, faith, friendship, love, encouragement and oneness through this journey...has been truly amazing! And no - we are no where near perfect and still have many areas we are asking the Holy Spirit to teach and lead us in - but, it has just been overwhelming to grow in ways we never thought possible as individuals and as a couple!
And again...it was back to a familiar spot - the waiting room! We waited for more than an hour to see the little man again-but man was it awesome to see him bouncing around! The ultrasound revealed that he is doing great in the area of physical growth and development. He is in the 77th percentile in growth - meaning he is a "chubby" little guy, as our tech - hilariously - put it! No signs of complications from the surgery! No hydrops! And no concerns associated with the on going pregnancy or pre-term delivery! Praise God...
And then a huge surprise...as our nurse/tech went to get the doctor and review Jackson's films - Dr. Emery, our surgeon, came in! We have not seen him since the surgery - and man was it ever great to catch up with him! He was so encouraged with all the reports and pictures - and as he sat down to go over Jackson with the ultrasound, he was so impressed with Kelly's recovery and progress in the pregnancy! Dr. Emery - immediately - was encouraged by what appear to be growth in Jackson's left ventricle, and the clarity and development of the Aorta!
After a great conversation with him...it was off to the Echo - that resulted in a mixed bag of news...again! The aortic valve appears to be continuing to function normally - with no leak and a good flow through the aorta. However, Dr. Sherman did share he is concerned it "could be" fusing itself together - and reverting to its original state. The left ventricle "appears" to have grown in the last two weeks, and the mitral regurgitation "may" have lessened. Jackson continues to move all over the place - which is a great sign of an on going pregnancy and no complications from the fetal surgery!
But...Jackson's left ventricle is still not squeezing! And Dr. Sherman and Emery shared that if things do not improve drastically in the next 12 weeks in the left ventricle that we are looking at the Norwood surgery process - starting two days after birth to by-pass the left side of his heart and utilize his right side as the only "pumping chamber"!
But we believe! And then the stone was rolled away...for our encouragement, endurance and assurance of our Future and Hope! Because Jesus teaches us...“that if you would believe you will see the glory of God!” [John 11:40, NKLV, emphasis mine] I believe that God has "hardened Jackson's heart" - not in a negative posture - but of a physically hardening...and this is just another opportunity for Christ to reveal the Glory, Majesty, Healing and Power of our Heavenly Father! And I pray - that the Lord continues to reveal, encourage and transform our lives and that He helps us in our unbelief!
So here is the gameplan..."wait"! We head back for another echo/ultrasound in a month from now - October 1st - where we will begin to make more concrete plans in preparation for Jackson's delivery - but right now, we must continue to wait - and wait with unwavering Faith! Kelly is due to deliver December 5th, and the doctors remain hopeful that we will see a "squeeze" before then in Jackson's left ventricle, but they just don't know what to expect! We are in waters that have never been charted, but God knows the plan! He has gone before us and He is Faithful! We give thanks for not just what He has done, is doing, or will do - but because of Who He Is!
House Update:
I just got off the phone with Stan a couple of minutes ago...and after a very intense 24 hours of prayer/conversation for him and Karen...they have shared with us the other couple has brought an offer and that they are continuing to pray and will make a decision Tuesday or Wednesday of next week. We are waiting on the bank for our approval letter - and are praying for all the components of the "mortgage process" to come together in God's perfect timing! Again - we don't know how God is going to move this mountain, but we Trust in Him - with great peace and unity - just as Abraham taught us through Isacc that He is Jehovah-Jireh...and He will Provide!
"Abraham called the name of the place, The-LORD-Will-Provide; as it is said to this day, “In the Mount of the LORD it shall be provided.” [Genesis 22:14, NKJV]
Please be in prayer for unity, peace, discernment, wisdom and provision (time, talent and treasure) in this midst of this "negotiation" process! Pray that the Lord will move in ways that will "shock and awe" us - as He continues to reveal His Glory, Majesty and Power! Pray that God would overwhelm not just us, but Karen and Stan as well with His Presence, Peace, Encouragement, Discernment, Clarity, Wisdom and Strength as we seek Him in this time of decision! And pray that we all continue to Keep our Eyes on Jesus, and pursue the Holy Spirit in our Lives - that we are not deceived by the schemes of this world and enemy, but stand firm on the Promises of God!
Let His light shine through you this weekend...and keep your Eyes on Jesus!
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Walk in the Light...
"Imitate God, therefore, in everything you do, because you are his dear children. Live a life filled with love, following the example of Christ...For once you were full of darkness, but now you have light from the Lord. So live as people of light! For this light within you produces only what is good and right and true...be filled by the Holy Spirit, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs among yourselves, and making music to the Lord in your hearts. Give thanks for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ!" [Ephesians 5:1-20, NLT]
Christmas morning was always so amazing...the anticipation, the aroma, the family, the laughter, the food, and the memories that will last a lifetime! But don't forget the Light...and the birth of our Savior in a manager! Imagine the anticipation that must have built over those 9 months for Mary and Joseph, their family, friends and community. The surprise, the emotions, the pregnancy, the confusion, the uncertainty, the struggle within, and the delivery of a baby boy who's Name is above all Names - Christ Jesus! He is the Lord of Lords, King of Kings, Mighty God, Healer and Savior! He is the Prince of Peace, Wonderful Counselor, the Great I Am, the Way, the Truth and the Life! He is Living Water...and He is Light!
Today, the anticipation builds for Kelly and I - as well as our families, friends and community. We don't know what the news will be, we don't know the what the doctors will see, not see or think they see - but we do know one thing...the Healing, Majesty and Power of our Risen Savior will continue to reveal His Glory! His Light continues to shine bright - we Praise Him in this Storm - not just for the things He has done or going to do, but because of Who He Is! There is an overwhelming peace this morning, and yeah the anticipation of today is intense...but He is our Prince of Peace and is just holding us in His arms today!
Please continue pray for the "squeeze" - and over the many plans that will be discussed and decided upon today. I ask that you cover Kel and I, and the doctors in prayer! Pray for wisdom, discernment, unity and peace! Pray that God continues to "shock and awe" all of us! And continue to walk in the Light..."giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light." [Colossi ans 1:12, NIV]
We are so pumped - and can't wait to share with you the story of what the Holy Spirit reveals to us later this afternoon through the ultrasound and echo cardiogram for Jackson! Thank you so much for your continued prayers, encouragement and support! We serve an Awesome God - and He can and will continue to move mountains! Trust in Him...
All Eyes on Jesus...
P.S. I will be teaching this evening on the World Wide Worship interActive Show and most likely will not be able to update the blog tonight...but will definitely do so first thing tomorrow morning! (If you would like to tune in watch the show live tonight at 7pm - you can at www.ctvn.org or check your local listings! But, please be a prayin'!)
Christmas morning was always so amazing...the anticipation, the aroma, the family, the laughter, the food, and the memories that will last a lifetime! But don't forget the Light...and the birth of our Savior in a manager! Imagine the anticipation that must have built over those 9 months for Mary and Joseph, their family, friends and community. The surprise, the emotions, the pregnancy, the confusion, the uncertainty, the struggle within, and the delivery of a baby boy who's Name is above all Names - Christ Jesus! He is the Lord of Lords, King of Kings, Mighty God, Healer and Savior! He is the Prince of Peace, Wonderful Counselor, the Great I Am, the Way, the Truth and the Life! He is Living Water...and He is Light!
Today, the anticipation builds for Kelly and I - as well as our families, friends and community. We don't know what the news will be, we don't know the what the doctors will see, not see or think they see - but we do know one thing...the Healing, Majesty and Power of our Risen Savior will continue to reveal His Glory! His Light continues to shine bright - we Praise Him in this Storm - not just for the things He has done or going to do, but because of Who He Is! There is an overwhelming peace this morning, and yeah the anticipation of today is intense...but He is our Prince of Peace and is just holding us in His arms today!
Please continue pray for the "squeeze" - and over the many plans that will be discussed and decided upon today. I ask that you cover Kel and I, and the doctors in prayer! Pray for wisdom, discernment, unity and peace! Pray that God continues to "shock and awe" all of us! And continue to walk in the Light..."giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light." [Colossi ans 1:12, NIV]
We are so pumped - and can't wait to share with you the story of what the Holy Spirit reveals to us later this afternoon through the ultrasound and echo cardiogram for Jackson! Thank you so much for your continued prayers, encouragement and support! We serve an Awesome God - and He can and will continue to move mountains! Trust in Him...
All Eyes on Jesus...
P.S. I will be teaching this evening on the World Wide Worship interActive Show and most likely will not be able to update the blog tonight...but will definitely do so first thing tomorrow morning! (If you would like to tune in watch the show live tonight at 7pm - you can at www.ctvn.org or check your local listings! But, please be a prayin'!)
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
The desert is blooming....
"Had they not walked through the desert, they could never know the Living Waters of Joy. He will make the desert bloom!" [Anonymous, compliments of Jesus]
A dear sister in the Lord, wise counsel and prayer warrior shared this promise with me last night -as I shared story after story of God's amazing Grace, Love, Provision, Majesty and Power being poured out yesterday! This thought - from the Lord - had been laid on her heart several days ago by the Holy Spirit! Here - she had been praying over our family and the Promise of Living Water led her to Malachi 3... to a moment of Truth and Promise, where the Lord requests of His people to test him ...
Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it." [Malachi 3:10, NIV]
Four months ago, the Holy Spirit prompted Kelly and I to get our feet wet and that He would part the waters and deliver us in the Promise land...we have prayed for wisdom, unity, clarity, provision and mercy. We have stood on the promise of His Peace and Strength in this desert experience, trusting that He prompted, led and guided us to this place of testing, molding and preparation. We have walked by Faith and not by sight, accepting His purpose, plan and will for our lives - not understanding it from our own perspective - and let me tell you...the floodgates of heaven are opening up and pouring out so much blessing that I don't even have enough room to contain it!
The desert is blooming: House Update
Yesterday - was amazing! God showed up in ways I never before have seen or heard. It started with a great update with Dr. Mallinger, Kelly's OB/GYN - Jackson's heart beat strong at 152bpm, he is measuring well, Kelly is recovery great, no signs of pre-term labor/delivery/complications, and everything is on schedule for a c-section delivery late fall!
We then headed to Butler to begin talking with local banks to secure a mortgage and move forward with Stan and Karen's home in Meridan. We continue to be amazed at how God's story is unfolding before us - down to every detail. After a great time of prayer, my first stop was at First National Bank of Slippery Rock. Great conversation with their assistant branch manager -nice guy - but just was not feeling led to submit a mortgage application with him. The Spirit clearly laid on my heart to "move on". My next stop was at Farmer's First Bank - and the manager was busy with other customers - so I left a message and continued on to the third bank - Citizens Bank.
As I walked in - I was greeted by a young woman behind the counter, and I shared I would like to talk with someone about a home mortgage - her reply was hilarious: "That's great! But you don't want to talk with me! I don't know anything about mortgages! But you do want to talk with her!" and she led me over to Vicki. Vicki and I sat down at her desk, and began having a great conversation. She asked about our situation - and if we had found a home. We began going through the mortgage application - and came to the question of my place of employment. "You really work for the Billy Graham Evangelistic Association? That is so cool...what do you for them?" she asked. And after a great conversation about my roles/responsibilities and the Lord's work through the ministries of BGEA, we were on to other financial questions. As we closed the application process - she paused and asked how I met my wife. Interesting question - and of course a more interesting answer! After explaining our blind date, falling in love over the phone, dated for 4months, engaged for 9 and married 13 months after we met, married for 7 years with two beautiful children and one on the way, and how blessed I am that God brought a rock of faith, love and commitment into my life as my wife - Vicki just had this huge smile on her face and was so encouraged. She shared that she has been praying for her son - who just turned 30 and lives outside of Lancaster, PA [no coincidence here that I just turned 30 last year, and lived in Lancaster for 22 years before I met Kelly] - to find a girlfriend who he can share life with and be a blessing to him. I asked his name - which I forget - and asked if I could pray for him. She was so grateful.
And after we talked for a few minutes longer - I could just tell something was on her mind. I asked her if there was anything else I could be praying for...and through tears she shared that her younger sister just recently died in a motorcycle accident while on vacation, leaving behind a husband and son - Andrew and Joshua. Immediately, I was in tears...(for if you don't know - I should not have survived a serious motorcycle accident myself this past March - after flipping and totaling my new cruiser four times, knocked unconscious, life-flighted to Mercy Hospital in Pittsburgh, released 12 hours later with no broken bones, no internal bleeding and just two bruised lungs and a sore ankle!)
After sharing faith and encouragement with Vicki for several minutes - I looked at her and asked, "If it would be okay with you - could I pray with you right now?" She was amazed by my question and agreed. So we stopped - right in the middle of Citizens Bank in Butler with an office full of activity - and prayed for her son, her family, Andrew, Joshua and for the Vicki's continued strength, encouragement and peace that the Lord is with each of them every step of the way - and that it is okay to cry out to Him for He is Love, Life and Salvation! I tell you what - you should have seen me dancing out of that place, for if that is the only reason that we found Stan and Karen's home, are going after a mortgage, and even if we don't get the house - then it was all worth it! It was a highlight in this whole journey...and then she handed me her card, and her last name is....Jackson! Come on ya'll...how nuts is that!
So, I "david danced" my way out of the bank, drove safely - as fast as I could - to pray and share with Kelly who had been praying the entire time with Grandma as I went to talk with the banks.
Then - an amazing phone call - from a dear brother in Christ, who I have not even met yet face to face. He is extremely wise counsel when it comes to the area of finances and investments - and after more than an hour of conversation, many tough questions, and an amazing sense of the Holy Spirit guiding our conversation - he said, brother:
...If I were in your shoes - without a wife, two children, the journey you are all have gone through, the "coincidences" of this home, the unknown medical situation with a new baby - I would say this home is to much of a stretch for you, and you should rent for a couple of years. BUT - that is not the case - and you need to go after this home, and find a place of refuge and retreat that provides space, security and stability for your wife and children.
AMEN and AMEN! Talk about encouragement! and then he said something I will never forget: "And you need to go and rely on those who can financially get you into this home. You are doing the right thing, by asking for financial counsel and help. And it is okay to go to those who are financially able to invest in the gospel and your ministry." He shared that he would be praying and ask God as to how he can financially support our family to get into this home, and I don't even know him! How awesome is our God! Do you see... the floodgates are opening...rain down Lord! Rain Down...
And after this conversation, and a quick call to one of our prayer warriors, which the Holy Spirit laid on my heart at the exact time she was praying for us, the home and our conversation with Karen and Stan - we were prepared to go after this home - with a full price offer and great confidence in/from our wise counsel and the Promise of Living Water! We want this to not only be a ministry investment on our part - but a huge blessing to Stan, Karen and Emily.
And after two hours of conversation with Stan and Karen...there is no doubt that the Lord is leading us to this home. Stan and I shared conversation and life together like to long-lost, life-long friends on the deck for an hour - talking about the ministry plans/ideas we have for the house, community, our families, the "coincidences" of our journeys, and so many other stories of God's grace, provision and love in our lives - it was so cool! Kelly and Karen spent an hour talking about the kids and our/their move. Kelly met an awesome neighbor - Trish (who needs are prayers right now, as her husband recently passed away and left two teenage, twin daughters). And we both watch Carter and Jordyn - with pure joy - as they played on the swing set, put sticks in the fire pit, played with Emily and her two dogs, rode Emily's tri-cycle with neighbor boys in the driveway! I can't even begin to tell you how excited we are, and of the many plans Kelly and I have for ministry, life and community in this home, but I can tell you how encouraged and confident we are in the way the Lord is "breakthrough" and calling the desert to bloom!
And then the moment of absolute conviction...Stan shares that he was expecting another offer later in the evening, and that he and Karen were led to take the next 7 days and pray, before making a decision! Hallelujah! How is awesome is that! A brother and sister in the Lord - who are going to reinforce their foundation of prayer, allowing the Holy Spirit to speak into their lives and this decision!
Please join us and reinforce our foundation of prayer , as we join Stan and Karen in prayer for discernment, peace, wisdom, and unity in this move and our families! We are praying that the Lord continues to move this mountain...makes His plan, purpose and path crystal clear...and that He continues to open His floodgates - as he already has - and pours down provision - not just financial, but in time, patience, strength, mercy and guidance! We don't know how he is going to get us into this home - but we know that if it is His Will, His Plan, and His Purpose - He will provide the resources necessary! Rain down, Lord Almighty!
Please join us in prayer for the next 7 days...and remember...all we need to do is be still!
[Deep breath]...I am fired up ya'll! I know that was intense and long - but one more quick update!
Jackson Update: Prayer Request
Tomorrow we have our echo and ultrasound for Jackson - and pray that the left side of his heart is "squeezing"! We believe that God is going to complete His healing - perfectly - and we can't wait to see how He is continuing to touch Jackson's life tomorrow!
Praise God...And Keep your Eyes Fixed on Jesus! Love you all...
A dear sister in the Lord, wise counsel and prayer warrior shared this promise with me last night -as I shared story after story of God's amazing Grace, Love, Provision, Majesty and Power being poured out yesterday! This thought - from the Lord - had been laid on her heart several days ago by the Holy Spirit! Here - she had been praying over our family and the Promise of Living Water led her to Malachi 3... to a moment of Truth and Promise, where the Lord requests of His people to test him ...
Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it." [Malachi 3:10, NIV]
Four months ago, the Holy Spirit prompted Kelly and I to get our feet wet and that He would part the waters and deliver us in the Promise land...we have prayed for wisdom, unity, clarity, provision and mercy. We have stood on the promise of His Peace and Strength in this desert experience, trusting that He prompted, led and guided us to this place of testing, molding and preparation. We have walked by Faith and not by sight, accepting His purpose, plan and will for our lives - not understanding it from our own perspective - and let me tell you...the floodgates of heaven are opening up and pouring out so much blessing that I don't even have enough room to contain it!
The desert is blooming: House Update
Yesterday - was amazing! God showed up in ways I never before have seen or heard. It started with a great update with Dr. Mallinger, Kelly's OB/GYN - Jackson's heart beat strong at 152bpm, he is measuring well, Kelly is recovery great, no signs of pre-term labor/delivery/complications, and everything is on schedule for a c-section delivery late fall!
We then headed to Butler to begin talking with local banks to secure a mortgage and move forward with Stan and Karen's home in Meridan. We continue to be amazed at how God's story is unfolding before us - down to every detail. After a great time of prayer, my first stop was at First National Bank of Slippery Rock. Great conversation with their assistant branch manager -nice guy - but just was not feeling led to submit a mortgage application with him. The Spirit clearly laid on my heart to "move on". My next stop was at Farmer's First Bank - and the manager was busy with other customers - so I left a message and continued on to the third bank - Citizens Bank.
As I walked in - I was greeted by a young woman behind the counter, and I shared I would like to talk with someone about a home mortgage - her reply was hilarious: "That's great! But you don't want to talk with me! I don't know anything about mortgages! But you do want to talk with her!" and she led me over to Vicki. Vicki and I sat down at her desk, and began having a great conversation. She asked about our situation - and if we had found a home. We began going through the mortgage application - and came to the question of my place of employment. "You really work for the Billy Graham Evangelistic Association? That is so cool...what do you for them?" she asked. And after a great conversation about my roles/responsibilities and the Lord's work through the ministries of BGEA, we were on to other financial questions. As we closed the application process - she paused and asked how I met my wife. Interesting question - and of course a more interesting answer! After explaining our blind date, falling in love over the phone, dated for 4months, engaged for 9 and married 13 months after we met, married for 7 years with two beautiful children and one on the way, and how blessed I am that God brought a rock of faith, love and commitment into my life as my wife - Vicki just had this huge smile on her face and was so encouraged. She shared that she has been praying for her son - who just turned 30 and lives outside of Lancaster, PA [no coincidence here that I just turned 30 last year, and lived in Lancaster for 22 years before I met Kelly] - to find a girlfriend who he can share life with and be a blessing to him. I asked his name - which I forget - and asked if I could pray for him. She was so grateful.
And after we talked for a few minutes longer - I could just tell something was on her mind. I asked her if there was anything else I could be praying for...and through tears she shared that her younger sister just recently died in a motorcycle accident while on vacation, leaving behind a husband and son - Andrew and Joshua. Immediately, I was in tears...(for if you don't know - I should not have survived a serious motorcycle accident myself this past March - after flipping and totaling my new cruiser four times, knocked unconscious, life-flighted to Mercy Hospital in Pittsburgh, released 12 hours later with no broken bones, no internal bleeding and just two bruised lungs and a sore ankle!)
After sharing faith and encouragement with Vicki for several minutes - I looked at her and asked, "If it would be okay with you - could I pray with you right now?" She was amazed by my question and agreed. So we stopped - right in the middle of Citizens Bank in Butler with an office full of activity - and prayed for her son, her family, Andrew, Joshua and for the Vicki's continued strength, encouragement and peace that the Lord is with each of them every step of the way - and that it is okay to cry out to Him for He is Love, Life and Salvation! I tell you what - you should have seen me dancing out of that place, for if that is the only reason that we found Stan and Karen's home, are going after a mortgage, and even if we don't get the house - then it was all worth it! It was a highlight in this whole journey...and then she handed me her card, and her last name is....Jackson! Come on ya'll...how nuts is that!
So, I "david danced" my way out of the bank, drove safely - as fast as I could - to pray and share with Kelly who had been praying the entire time with Grandma as I went to talk with the banks.
Then - an amazing phone call - from a dear brother in Christ, who I have not even met yet face to face. He is extremely wise counsel when it comes to the area of finances and investments - and after more than an hour of conversation, many tough questions, and an amazing sense of the Holy Spirit guiding our conversation - he said, brother:
...If I were in your shoes - without a wife, two children, the journey you are all have gone through, the "coincidences" of this home, the unknown medical situation with a new baby - I would say this home is to much of a stretch for you, and you should rent for a couple of years. BUT - that is not the case - and you need to go after this home, and find a place of refuge and retreat that provides space, security and stability for your wife and children.
AMEN and AMEN! Talk about encouragement! and then he said something I will never forget: "And you need to go and rely on those who can financially get you into this home. You are doing the right thing, by asking for financial counsel and help. And it is okay to go to those who are financially able to invest in the gospel and your ministry." He shared that he would be praying and ask God as to how he can financially support our family to get into this home, and I don't even know him! How awesome is our God! Do you see... the floodgates are opening...rain down Lord! Rain Down...
And after this conversation, and a quick call to one of our prayer warriors, which the Holy Spirit laid on my heart at the exact time she was praying for us, the home and our conversation with Karen and Stan - we were prepared to go after this home - with a full price offer and great confidence in/from our wise counsel and the Promise of Living Water! We want this to not only be a ministry investment on our part - but a huge blessing to Stan, Karen and Emily.
And after two hours of conversation with Stan and Karen...there is no doubt that the Lord is leading us to this home. Stan and I shared conversation and life together like to long-lost, life-long friends on the deck for an hour - talking about the ministry plans/ideas we have for the house, community, our families, the "coincidences" of our journeys, and so many other stories of God's grace, provision and love in our lives - it was so cool! Kelly and Karen spent an hour talking about the kids and our/their move. Kelly met an awesome neighbor - Trish (who needs are prayers right now, as her husband recently passed away and left two teenage, twin daughters). And we both watch Carter and Jordyn - with pure joy - as they played on the swing set, put sticks in the fire pit, played with Emily and her two dogs, rode Emily's tri-cycle with neighbor boys in the driveway! I can't even begin to tell you how excited we are, and of the many plans Kelly and I have for ministry, life and community in this home, but I can tell you how encouraged and confident we are in the way the Lord is "breakthrough" and calling the desert to bloom!
And then the moment of absolute conviction...Stan shares that he was expecting another offer later in the evening, and that he and Karen were led to take the next 7 days and pray, before making a decision! Hallelujah! How is awesome is that! A brother and sister in the Lord - who are going to reinforce their foundation of prayer, allowing the Holy Spirit to speak into their lives and this decision!
Please join us and reinforce our foundation of prayer , as we join Stan and Karen in prayer for discernment, peace, wisdom, and unity in this move and our families! We are praying that the Lord continues to move this mountain...makes His plan, purpose and path crystal clear...and that He continues to open His floodgates - as he already has - and pours down provision - not just financial, but in time, patience, strength, mercy and guidance! We don't know how he is going to get us into this home - but we know that if it is His Will, His Plan, and His Purpose - He will provide the resources necessary! Rain down, Lord Almighty!
Please join us in prayer for the next 7 days...and remember...all we need to do is be still!
[Deep breath]...I am fired up ya'll! I know that was intense and long - but one more quick update!
Jackson Update: Prayer Request
Tomorrow we have our echo and ultrasound for Jackson - and pray that the left side of his heart is "squeezing"! We believe that God is going to complete His healing - perfectly - and we can't wait to see how He is continuing to touch Jackson's life tomorrow!
Praise God...And Keep your Eyes Fixed on Jesus! Love you all...
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Need only to be still...
"Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today. ...The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still." [Exodus 14:13-14, NIV]
You need only to ______ - what? You fill in the blank! What do you need to do to get out of the jam, to defeat the enemy, to conquer the project.
The scene was intense - when the Israelites looked to their left they saw desert! When they looked to the right, they saw desert! When they looked behind them, they saw 600 of the best fighters in the world hunting them down - with an entire army beside them, and a hardened heart of Pharaoh who wanted to kill all the men, and bring the woman and children back into slavery! In front of them...water! Lots of water! We are talking a sea of water...not a mud puddle from a summer thunderstorm...but the Red Sea! What do you do? What would you do? What would you say? To whom would you cry out to? Would your reaction be the same as the Israelites...
"As Pharaoh approached, the Israelites looked up, and there were the Egyptians, marching after them. They were terrified and cried out to the LORD. They said to Moses, "Was it because there were no graves in Egypt that you brought us to the desert to die? What have you done to us by bringing us out of Egypt? Didn't we say to you in Egypt, 'Leave us alone; let us serve the Egyptians'? It would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the desert!" [Exodus 14:10-12, NIV]
Where are the people of Israel looking...they cry out to the Lord...yet turn on their leader and ask why? Why would you lead us to a place of death and destruction? Was it because there was not enough room in our current community to bury us? For it was better to be in the state we were in then to endure death in the desert...but Moses' reply is just off the hook ya'll, "Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today. ...The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still." [Exodus 14:13-14, NIV]
I mean come on man are you kidding me...we have an army pursuing us, desert and water surrounding us...and you are telling me to "be still" and to "not be afraid". Come on...
Oh us of little faith! Do we really believe? Or do we just "hope" that the Lord will give us blessing and rescue us, so that we can live comfortably? Do we really have faith - unwavering faith - standing firm on His promise of rescue, deliverance, provision, and life! God is not some eternal blessing-machine for people to use, and He did not come to save us out of pity - He came to save us because He created us to be Holy [to be set apart]. Atonement through the Cross of Christ means that God can put me into perfect oneness with Himself through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ, without a trace of anything coming between us any longer. [Oswald Chambers] And that is why he led them to the desert, to banks of the Red Sea with an army chasing them! It was just another opportunity to reveal/demonstrate who He Is! He is the Great I Am..the alpha and omega...unchanging...life...and our eternal salvation!
The House...
Friday stung! No doubt! And it took us a few days to collect our bearings, again. But, like never before...Kelly and I harnessed up on our foundation of prayer and put together a game plan! It consisted of two things: 1. Prayer! 2. Stillness! Sounds awesome doesn't it! We prayed together all weekend - read scriptures/talked through several devotionals/enjoyed awesome conversations through the prompting of the Holy Spirit and a great time of worship on Sunday! And just in case you all didn't know - Kelly is awesome! She has been such a rock through this entire storm, my wise counsel and an incredible wife/mommy/friend in the midst of an extremely deep emotional, physical, mental and spiritual test of our faith! We truly just enjoyed the company of "us" - the five of us - this weekend! We were still...and allowed the Lord to minister to us through His stillness and quiet place as we cried out to Him! It was a weekend of refuge, retreat and renewal! And it was good...
Yesterday - I had to travel to Grove City, PA and meet with an incredible supporter of the BGEA and deliver some annuity documents to her...so we all got up early, packed up the car and headed to Kelly's mom and dad's place where she and the kids were going to hang all day. I dropped them off quick and continued down I-80 another half hour to my appointment. It was a great conversation...sharing story after story of how God has truly worked over the last year in not only the Billy Graham Association, but in our families! This wonderful sister in the Lord asked about Kelly and the kids - which naturally led to a conversation about our current situation - and I must say to have the opportunity to share the story of God's power, majesty and glory was just awesome! And after a great time of encouragement and prayer together - for both of our families and the Lord's work - it was off to lunch and my afternoon appointment.
As I got in the car, I had an overwhelming sense to go back to Dave and Deb's (Kel's parents) and pick up Kelly and go out for lunch. I called my afternoon appointment - which we had left open-ended last week and needing to confirm by phone before I stopped in - and was unable to reach them. I tried several times - and no answer - so I rescheduled via voicemail...and headed down the road to pick up Kel.
As I got back to the house - Dave, Deb, Kelly and I began to talk about homes in the South Butler area. Here, Dave and Deb "scouted" out the area for more than 3 hours on Saturday, driving in and out of several communities that they new from their extensive home search 4 years ago. Even though they did not land in the area - they know it extremely well - and just felt led to go and look for us on Saturday. We did not even know they went - and found out that Deb suffered through a migraine the entire afternoon and evening! Another demonstration of the Body of Christ expressing His Love and Grace through their hands, feet and car!! They found three homes that they felt would be a great fit (great house, great community, great location) - two of which we called on and left voice mails. Again - I had this overwhelming sense to get in the car and head down the road to look at this one home in particular. It was in the Meridian area and was "for sale by owner". It is actually the home to the "for sale by owner" sign we have driven past several times - thinking it was another house that we looked at in the area - that Kelly kept asking me about it!
So Kel and I headed down the road, grabbed a sub at subway, and then got a phone call from the owner - Karen. Kel and I pulled off the road - afraid we were going to lose cell phone reception on the back roads of Emlenton - and shared a great conversation with her! Check this out...here Karen and Kelly grew up in the same area - Parker, PA. Karen attended the same church as Kel growing up in Park Hill - even though they had never met. And in the half hour it took us to get to Sahara Drive - did you catch that - Karen had made the connection that she and Kel are actually related! Here Karen, her husband Stan and daughter Emily all attend the same church as Kel's Grandma and Aunt - and are actually distant cousins! How awesome is our God! But it gets better!
The reason that Karen and Stan are selling the home - is that they are wanting to downsize because of Karen's health problems. Specifically - heart problems! Here Karen has Aortic Stenosis! The same condition as Jackson! How nuts is that ya'll! Come on...do you see God in this! And as we searched for a genetic link for the last 5 weeks within our family - God just made the connection for us! Karen's brother and niece (at 4yrs) passed away from the same condition, and her nephew has endured open heart surgery at age 10. Karen has done well through the years - just having to watch her fluid intake, with minor complications - and was such an encouragement to us! Thank you Lord!
After a good cry together - heck, I had to step into the hallway to collect myself, such a sap - we went through the remainder of the home, which is more than we could ever have dreamed of or asked for! It is amazing! Truly a place of space, sanctuary and refuge for our family - in a spectacular community and location!
The only catch...there is another couple who has gone through the home twice! So Kel and I shared with Karen that we would pray for a night, get back in touch with her this morning and allow the other couple first shot at the house - for we know the sting of a family coming in and taking a home out from under us! We will not do the same thing that was done to us!
We believe that this is the home that God has prepared for us and called us to - with an overwhelming sense of peace and unity - and we will continue to move forward, and trust in His plan, timing and provision! We hope to have the opportunity to talk with Karen and Stan this morning and possibly this afternoon over lunch, and also plan to talk with several local banks, continuing to prepare financially!
God is parting the waters...and we are in need of your prayers right now! Please continue to pray for clarity, peace, unity, wisdom and provision in our conversations with Karen, Stan and the banks! Pray without unwavering faith! This is a home with awesome ministry potential - and Kel and I have talked through so many ideas, dreams and plans as to how we believe God is leading us to use this home as a place to advance His kingdom and gospel!
He is the King of Glory - and He is on the move! We are excited...and will continue to keep our Eyes on Jesus! Get's to prayin...
You need only to ______ - what? You fill in the blank! What do you need to do to get out of the jam, to defeat the enemy, to conquer the project.
The scene was intense - when the Israelites looked to their left they saw desert! When they looked to the right, they saw desert! When they looked behind them, they saw 600 of the best fighters in the world hunting them down - with an entire army beside them, and a hardened heart of Pharaoh who wanted to kill all the men, and bring the woman and children back into slavery! In front of them...water! Lots of water! We are talking a sea of water...not a mud puddle from a summer thunderstorm...but the Red Sea! What do you do? What would you do? What would you say? To whom would you cry out to? Would your reaction be the same as the Israelites...
"As Pharaoh approached, the Israelites looked up, and there were the Egyptians, marching after them. They were terrified and cried out to the LORD. They said to Moses, "Was it because there were no graves in Egypt that you brought us to the desert to die? What have you done to us by bringing us out of Egypt? Didn't we say to you in Egypt, 'Leave us alone; let us serve the Egyptians'? It would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the desert!" [Exodus 14:10-12, NIV]
Where are the people of Israel looking...they cry out to the Lord...yet turn on their leader and ask why? Why would you lead us to a place of death and destruction? Was it because there was not enough room in our current community to bury us? For it was better to be in the state we were in then to endure death in the desert...but Moses' reply is just off the hook ya'll, "Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today. ...The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still." [Exodus 14:13-14, NIV]
I mean come on man are you kidding me...we have an army pursuing us, desert and water surrounding us...and you are telling me to "be still" and to "not be afraid". Come on...
Oh us of little faith! Do we really believe? Or do we just "hope" that the Lord will give us blessing and rescue us, so that we can live comfortably? Do we really have faith - unwavering faith - standing firm on His promise of rescue, deliverance, provision, and life! God is not some eternal blessing-machine for people to use, and He did not come to save us out of pity - He came to save us because He created us to be Holy [to be set apart]. Atonement through the Cross of Christ means that God can put me into perfect oneness with Himself through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ, without a trace of anything coming between us any longer. [Oswald Chambers] And that is why he led them to the desert, to banks of the Red Sea with an army chasing them! It was just another opportunity to reveal/demonstrate who He Is! He is the Great I Am..the alpha and omega...unchanging...life...and our eternal salvation!
The House...
Friday stung! No doubt! And it took us a few days to collect our bearings, again. But, like never before...Kelly and I harnessed up on our foundation of prayer and put together a game plan! It consisted of two things: 1. Prayer! 2. Stillness! Sounds awesome doesn't it! We prayed together all weekend - read scriptures/talked through several devotionals/enjoyed awesome conversations through the prompting of the Holy Spirit and a great time of worship on Sunday! And just in case you all didn't know - Kelly is awesome! She has been such a rock through this entire storm, my wise counsel and an incredible wife/mommy/friend in the midst of an extremely deep emotional, physical, mental and spiritual test of our faith! We truly just enjoyed the company of "us" - the five of us - this weekend! We were still...and allowed the Lord to minister to us through His stillness and quiet place as we cried out to Him! It was a weekend of refuge, retreat and renewal! And it was good...
Yesterday - I had to travel to Grove City, PA and meet with an incredible supporter of the BGEA and deliver some annuity documents to her...so we all got up early, packed up the car and headed to Kelly's mom and dad's place where she and the kids were going to hang all day. I dropped them off quick and continued down I-80 another half hour to my appointment. It was a great conversation...sharing story after story of how God has truly worked over the last year in not only the Billy Graham Association, but in our families! This wonderful sister in the Lord asked about Kelly and the kids - which naturally led to a conversation about our current situation - and I must say to have the opportunity to share the story of God's power, majesty and glory was just awesome! And after a great time of encouragement and prayer together - for both of our families and the Lord's work - it was off to lunch and my afternoon appointment.
As I got in the car, I had an overwhelming sense to go back to Dave and Deb's (Kel's parents) and pick up Kelly and go out for lunch. I called my afternoon appointment - which we had left open-ended last week and needing to confirm by phone before I stopped in - and was unable to reach them. I tried several times - and no answer - so I rescheduled via voicemail...and headed down the road to pick up Kel.
As I got back to the house - Dave, Deb, Kelly and I began to talk about homes in the South Butler area. Here, Dave and Deb "scouted" out the area for more than 3 hours on Saturday, driving in and out of several communities that they new from their extensive home search 4 years ago. Even though they did not land in the area - they know it extremely well - and just felt led to go and look for us on Saturday. We did not even know they went - and found out that Deb suffered through a migraine the entire afternoon and evening! Another demonstration of the Body of Christ expressing His Love and Grace through their hands, feet and car!! They found three homes that they felt would be a great fit (great house, great community, great location) - two of which we called on and left voice mails. Again - I had this overwhelming sense to get in the car and head down the road to look at this one home in particular. It was in the Meridian area and was "for sale by owner". It is actually the home to the "for sale by owner" sign we have driven past several times - thinking it was another house that we looked at in the area - that Kelly kept asking me about it!
So Kel and I headed down the road, grabbed a sub at subway, and then got a phone call from the owner - Karen. Kel and I pulled off the road - afraid we were going to lose cell phone reception on the back roads of Emlenton - and shared a great conversation with her! Check this out...here Karen and Kelly grew up in the same area - Parker, PA. Karen attended the same church as Kel growing up in Park Hill - even though they had never met. And in the half hour it took us to get to Sahara Drive - did you catch that - Karen had made the connection that she and Kel are actually related! Here Karen, her husband Stan and daughter Emily all attend the same church as Kel's Grandma and Aunt - and are actually distant cousins! How awesome is our God! But it gets better!
The reason that Karen and Stan are selling the home - is that they are wanting to downsize because of Karen's health problems. Specifically - heart problems! Here Karen has Aortic Stenosis! The same condition as Jackson! How nuts is that ya'll! Come on...do you see God in this! And as we searched for a genetic link for the last 5 weeks within our family - God just made the connection for us! Karen's brother and niece (at 4yrs) passed away from the same condition, and her nephew has endured open heart surgery at age 10. Karen has done well through the years - just having to watch her fluid intake, with minor complications - and was such an encouragement to us! Thank you Lord!
After a good cry together - heck, I had to step into the hallway to collect myself, such a sap - we went through the remainder of the home, which is more than we could ever have dreamed of or asked for! It is amazing! Truly a place of space, sanctuary and refuge for our family - in a spectacular community and location!
The only catch...there is another couple who has gone through the home twice! So Kel and I shared with Karen that we would pray for a night, get back in touch with her this morning and allow the other couple first shot at the house - for we know the sting of a family coming in and taking a home out from under us! We will not do the same thing that was done to us!
We believe that this is the home that God has prepared for us and called us to - with an overwhelming sense of peace and unity - and we will continue to move forward, and trust in His plan, timing and provision! We hope to have the opportunity to talk with Karen and Stan this morning and possibly this afternoon over lunch, and also plan to talk with several local banks, continuing to prepare financially!
God is parting the waters...and we are in need of your prayers right now! Please continue to pray for clarity, peace, unity, wisdom and provision in our conversations with Karen, Stan and the banks! Pray without unwavering faith! This is a home with awesome ministry potential - and Kel and I have talked through so many ideas, dreams and plans as to how we believe God is leading us to use this home as a place to advance His kingdom and gospel!
He is the King of Glory - and He is on the move! We are excited...and will continue to keep our Eyes on Jesus! Get's to prayin...
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