"Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? (As the Scriptures say, “For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.”) No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us." [Romans 8:35-37]
Talk about Encouraging News...
Finally - the opportunity for Kelly and I to "reset" and get back on the same page for an hour and a half of un-interrupted time! It was awesome...and very much needed! Granted, it was the drive from the Farm to Magee Women's Hospital yesterday morning - and we do desperately miss our 15 minute trip from our old house - but, it was a great opportunity for Kel and I to reconnect and talk/pray through many of the "waves" that we are facing right now!
Our day in Pittsburgh started with a wonderful lunch conversation with an awesome sister/mentor in Christ at Panera - and finally, Kelly found a meal that tasted great...Panera's chicken noodle soup and a sourdough roll! And with a full cooler and two large bags of food/meals from our small group - who are all absolutely amazing! Miss you guys so much! And can't wait to see you all! - we left Panera prayed up and ready for an afternoon at the hospital...
The first stop was to get Kelly's 15 staples out! The nurse and Dr. Harris were great and very encouraged by the way Kelly's incision was healing! There are no signs of infection, and they shared with us that the reason for the intense pain across Kel's incision is because of the "stretch, pressure and pull" from the ongoing pregnancy and Jackson's movement in the womb! Praise the Lord - again, great pain - but intense pain to say the least! I can only imagine...literally!
With the staples out and the butterfly strips on - it was time for the ultrasound! As we waited in the waiting room - a mother and three children came in and sat down beside us! Her oldest son, and middle daughter reminded us so much of Carter and Jordyn! The girl even had the same curly hair and "personality" of Jordyn! It was nuts...and absolutely hilarious! Can't wait...no, really I can!
As the tech prepped Kel for the ultrasound, Dr. Speer came in and asked us if it would be alright if a few of his colleagues could observe our appointments today. Absolutely! We understand that they are seeing/studying things that have never been witnessed before-and are excited, just as we are to see how Jackson is developing - and man was it was awesome to see Jackson! He was moving all over the place - but, laid in perfect position for the tech to get some great pictures and measurements! And, as soon as Dr. Speer sat down to take over - wouldn't you know it - Jackson rolled over and would only show him his spine! It was hilarious! It was the same exact position Jackson would roll too on Friday every time Dr. Speer tried to position him for the surgery! It was a great moment, and these two definitely have a history already - as Dr. Speer's holding of Jackson in position last Friday gave a whole new meaning to "God parent", intercessor and laying on of hands!
With the great results from the ultrasound, it was time to look at how Jackson's heart was healing/developing through an Echo with Dr. Sherman. Immediately you could see the difference in the flow! You could also see the excitement and intense interest of Dr. Sherman and Dr. Speer - as they were seeing things that they had never had the opportunity to witness/study before! It was so cool! They found that Jackson still has Mitral Regurgitation between the two left chambers of his heart - but with more velocity since the surgery! "In theory" this means that the left side of his heart is able to create more force/pressure post-procedure, thus creating more velocity, and possibly meaning the left side of his heart is growing/developing! This is all "in theory" because it is all so new - and they are just not sure what all of it means as to Jackson's development/prognosis! It is truly a "wait and see" journey at this point! Jackson's aortic valve continues to have a leak post-procedure, meaning they have definitely improved the flow, as there was hardly any flow before the surgery, and now there is a leak! They are unsure as to the severity of the leak...but, their hope is that over the next four months as Jackson is in the best environment for healing possible - in utero - that the valve will heal or possibly just need a valve replacement upon delivery! Again - very encouraging!
With all that being said...it was a day full of encouraging news! But the most encouraging news is that there seems to be a "flutter" or a "slide" on the left side, posterior/lateral wall of his left ventricle - which was not there prior to the surgery! Meaning, there is more movement in the left side of his heart post procedure! But, again - it is all to soon and new to know what this means in regards to Jackson's development! I truly believe that the next four months, leading up to delivery, may very well be the longest four month stretched we have ever faced! Jackson is not out of the woods at this point - and still very much needs our prayers, and supernatural, divine healing over the next four months before delivery - but we and our team of doctors are extremely encouraged and are leaning into the uncertainty! I can't wait to see how the Lord continues to move in and through Jackson, our team of doctors and all that we have the opportunity to share His story with!
Remember - God is the main character in Jackson's story, not Jackson! And we are so excited, encouraged and thankful for the Lord's Grace and Healing Hands upon Jackson's life! He is so Faithful...and what can ever separate us from His Love?
It is a tough question...and one that many people have been running from for many years! NOTHING can separate us from the Overwhelming Love and Victory we have through Christ! When we are face to face with the storms, trials, tribulations, dangers, loss of a job, loss of a loved one or any other valley of darkness - we must stand firm on this Promise! And when I read this scripture late last night - after an awesome conversation with a very close friend and brother in Christ, who God is just moving powerfully through - like never before, these words gripped my heart! "Live Victoriously" has been a rally cry for years, but it is time Church! It is time for us to Live in the Overwhelming Love and Victory that we have through Christ Jesus - our Risen Lord and Savior! And the toughest question just might be..."why not?"
What have you not yet surrendered? What still has a stronghold in/over your life? What/Who are you afraid of? Who is that barrier, or button-pusher, who just continues to sow seeds of doubt into your heart! And why are your eyes on them or that! Get your eyes fixed on Christ and Live Victoriously! Christ has conquered sin and death through the Cross - His blood has been shed, and battle was already been won! And He is coming back again! "I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord." [Romans 8:38-39]
Please know that “you are the light of the world... let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father." [Matthew 5: 14,16]
All Eyes on Jesus...
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Peace and Strength...
"Honor the Lord, you heavenly beings; honor the Lord for his glory and strength. Honor the Lord for the glory of his name. Worship the Lord in the splendor of his holiness." [Psalm 29:1-2]
So many times throughout this journey I have relied on David's words through out the Psalms to lift my eyes...and talk about an opportunity to see the authenticity and transparency of a life in relationship with God. His heart cries, his joy, his plea, his worship, his struggle, his encouragement, his desperation, his hope, his surrender, his love for our God - His Strength and Peace!
And strength and peace is exactly what yesterday held! The reinforcements - Katie - arrived yesterday right before lunch, and what an awesome blessing she has been! The kids were so excited for her to come and hang with us for a couple of days - especially Carter - as Katie has been there time and time again to watch the kids for Kel and I when we had small group, a date night, a dinner out, doctor's appointments, or just needed to get a way for an evening/afternoon! And when the procedure was moved up to last Friday, we never had the chance to get my mom and dad's place "set up" for us to stay here for a couple of weeks in the midst of our move! So, yesterday was day of organization and cleaning. Katie, Carter - who is an awesome helper at age 5 and one heck of a worker - and I set up the basement as the kids play room/tv room - allowing Kel the opportunity to relax/rest in the family room. We also worked at getting the bedrooms put together, especially the kids room! And man, what a difference 6 hours of sweat equity can make in a home! When we sat down to dinner last night - Katie made crock pot Lasagna that was awesome, and the first meal that Kelly felt good enough to enjoy - we were exhausted, but such a peace had come over Kelly and I, just with having the house set up! Of course we long for a place of our own, and will begin looking for houses again soon - but, finally, we are just able to take a deep breath here at the farm, and feel like we are somewhat comfortable and put together!
Kelly was feeling much better last evening, after a day spent on the couch watching "chick flicks" with good naps in between - or during! She still has a lot of incision pain, and we are worried it may be a little infected. Her nausea has subsided and she seems to be getting around a little easier, but it is still really painful for her to get up and down from a seated or laying down position. Unlike a C-section where the baby is in your arms after the surgery, the ongoing pregnancy and Jackson continuing to grow, do somersaults and kicks [Hallelujiah] there is so much added pressure to her incision and abdomen...and at times the pain just brings her to tears! They are tears of joy don't get me wrong - and Kelly will be the first to tell you that - but, the joy comes through the pain!
Today is going to be a full day, and please be in prayer for Kel's comfort and physical strength with all the driving, sitting, walking and just movement the day will hold! This is our first trip to the hospital since being discharged on Sunday and we are both anxious to see how Jackson is doing! We are so excited to see our team of doctor's and just have the opportunity to talk with and continue to learn with them! The schedule looks like this...
11:15 - Leave Dayton and drive to Magee Women's Hospital
12:30 - Lunch with Kathy (who is bringing us meals organized by/through our small group from NorthWay)
1:30 - Appointment to have Kelly's staples removed and to check her incision
2:30 - Ultrasound
3:00 - Echo and meeting with Dr. Speer and Dr. Sherman
5:30 - Hopefully, back home here at the farm - with great news to share!
I will try to update the blog later this evening...but please be in prayer through out the day! Many of you have been asking in what "specific" ways you can be praying for us, and again I would plea with you to be praying for Kel's pain and incision, and just the strength/peace and comfort to get through our day! Pray for healing upon Jackson's aortic valve following the procedure - as we hope to know more about his valve following our echo/meeting this afternoon! And stand firm on the Truth found in Romans 8 that "the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will. And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." [Romans 8:26-28]
And continue to worship and praise His Name - the Name of Jesus - that He Loves, Lives and is always there for us! He was, is and is always going to be our Rock, Refuge and Rescue!
All Eyes on Jesus!
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Pressing on...
"...But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." [Phillipians3: 13-14]
One of my favorite scriptures [and one of my "life" verses] that has always allowed me to see the humility and strength of the Apostle Paul. If he didn't have it altogether - other than Christ, who on this planet ever has! These words - written as Paul was facing imprisonment and an upcoming trial - truly expresses his joy and faith in Christ...while encouraging us to walk humbly and in unity! These words are the definition of "All Eyes on Jesus!" ... Pressing on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us!
Pressing on...is a phrase that has new meaning over the last few weeks! And yesterday - was one of those days that brought this phrase to life! I so wanted an escape yesterday - a beach with white sands, waves crashing, a cool breeze and no one around would have done! The kids were off the wall - which, is to be expected after a week away from Mommy and Daddy - and in a brand new "set up" here at the farm! Getting back into the routine is never easy...and after a rough night's sleep, Kelly woke up yesterday around 8:00am and was in severe pain! On top of that - her nausea was so intense that she threw up - which brought more pain and stress to her abdomen! Her nausea was overwhelming, so she didn't eat, and was taking pain meds on an empty stomach - which led to more nausea - not a good cycle! And wanting to focus on Kel and get her comfortable, while taking care of the kiddos really made that beach scene look good!
Then came a huge blessing - Dr. Speer called to check in, and was very concerned about Kelly's nausea and pain. He called in a prescription of Zofran to calm her stomach, hopefully allowing her to eat a little more, and allowing the pain meds to be taken with less nausea - that was countering there effect. But, calling in a prescription, became quite the adventure - and man do you miss the city, whenever you need a perscription to be filled quickly! So, I dropped Carter off at my Aunt's to play with two of his cousins that are in from California - and Jordyn and I were off to Kittanning to grab Kelly's prescription! Well - two hours later we got home! The prescription was at another location, Jordyn was a handful to say the least, and a half hour drive in one direction, with a Wal-Mart run thrown in for groceries that Kelly "thought" would taste good - was just nuts! Man, I could have used one of those 5 minute runs to Target! And of course - while we were gone, which is the first time Kelly had been alone - her pain had gotten worse!
But once I got back...got Kel's meds in her, Jordyn to sleep, and Carter enjoying "quiet time"...Daddy was more than ready for an afternoon nap! And then Paul's words slapped me in the face...press on, get up, get going, be strong, be courageous, one step at a time, get your eyes on Jesus - for the Lord your God is with you, before you and behind you! He is your strength, He is your peace, He is your Joy, Rescue and Escape...keep going!
So many times in life I/we want to scream - why? But it is not the right question! And further more - it is the absolute wrong question! The right question is - who? Who are we focused on? Who is our source of strength? Who is our source of hope, encouragement, life? Who is our motivation? Who is our testimony? Who is our worship?
Is it the/a celebrity? The singer, star, or athlete? Is it our children, spouse, significant other? Our co-workers, boss, team or position? Is it our family, friends, or church community? And please - don't get me wrong - these can be absolutely incredible people, but can also take the "spotlight", glory and honor that is due to Christ Jesus alone in our worship and praise! And yesterday - He bumped me - and reminded me that my undivided attention must be on Him and Him alone! If it is...everything else will remain in perfect balance! He must be the "hub" of our lives in order for every "spoke" - the people/things that He needs us to stand in the gap for - to be perfectly positioned and allow us to "roll" according to His Purpose and Will...and again, please know that this knucklehead has not "already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me." [Philippians 3:12]
And prayer is our best help when trials come our way, because it keeps us in communion with God! And is exactly what Kelly and I continue to lean into to transform our perspective! After an awesome conversation with my Managing Director with the Billy Graham Association...who has been absolutely unbelievable in and through this entire storm! The outpouring of support and love from the men and women that I serve along side of has been unfathomable! Talk about a ministry/community of prayer, encouragement and hope! And having the opportunity to take this week off - and next if I need it - to love on my bride and kids, is one of the greatest blessings in the midst of this journey!
Then Grandma Barrett showed up with dinner [Hallelujah] - and even though Kel still did not have an appetite - corn, applesauce and strawberry shortcake was a little bit of heaven for Carter, Jordyn and Daddy! And after watching a doe and two fawns in the back yard for a little while - all was quiet, both kids asleep and an awesome moment for daddy and mommy to just sit still and pray/talk together!
Yeah - it was a long day, but once again the power of prayer turned the day upside down and truly allowed us to see God's grip of Grace in our lives! Kelly and I continue to me amazed at how the Lord continues to reveal himself to us time and time again, and continues to teach us to be strong and courageous, for the Lord God is with you wherever you go! Standing firm on that Promise found in Joshua 1:9...
Today - has been an awesome morning! Kel and I were up early...allowing for some great quiet time, devotion and conversation! With breakfast already in us, the sun shining, and the kids anxiously awaiting the arrival of Katie - Kelly's cousin who will be staying with us for a few days to help [Praise the Lord] today is going to be an awesome day!
All Eyes on Jesus!
One of my favorite scriptures [and one of my "life" verses] that has always allowed me to see the humility and strength of the Apostle Paul. If he didn't have it altogether - other than Christ, who on this planet ever has! These words - written as Paul was facing imprisonment and an upcoming trial - truly expresses his joy and faith in Christ...while encouraging us to walk humbly and in unity! These words are the definition of "All Eyes on Jesus!" ... Pressing on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us!
Pressing on...is a phrase that has new meaning over the last few weeks! And yesterday - was one of those days that brought this phrase to life! I so wanted an escape yesterday - a beach with white sands, waves crashing, a cool breeze and no one around would have done! The kids were off the wall - which, is to be expected after a week away from Mommy and Daddy - and in a brand new "set up" here at the farm! Getting back into the routine is never easy...and after a rough night's sleep, Kelly woke up yesterday around 8:00am and was in severe pain! On top of that - her nausea was so intense that she threw up - which brought more pain and stress to her abdomen! Her nausea was overwhelming, so she didn't eat, and was taking pain meds on an empty stomach - which led to more nausea - not a good cycle! And wanting to focus on Kel and get her comfortable, while taking care of the kiddos really made that beach scene look good!
Then came a huge blessing - Dr. Speer called to check in, and was very concerned about Kelly's nausea and pain. He called in a prescription of Zofran to calm her stomach, hopefully allowing her to eat a little more, and allowing the pain meds to be taken with less nausea - that was countering there effect. But, calling in a prescription, became quite the adventure - and man do you miss the city, whenever you need a perscription to be filled quickly! So, I dropped Carter off at my Aunt's to play with two of his cousins that are in from California - and Jordyn and I were off to Kittanning to grab Kelly's prescription! Well - two hours later we got home! The prescription was at another location, Jordyn was a handful to say the least, and a half hour drive in one direction, with a Wal-Mart run thrown in for groceries that Kelly "thought" would taste good - was just nuts! Man, I could have used one of those 5 minute runs to Target! And of course - while we were gone, which is the first time Kelly had been alone - her pain had gotten worse!
But once I got back...got Kel's meds in her, Jordyn to sleep, and Carter enjoying "quiet time"...Daddy was more than ready for an afternoon nap! And then Paul's words slapped me in the face...press on, get up, get going, be strong, be courageous, one step at a time, get your eyes on Jesus - for the Lord your God is with you, before you and behind you! He is your strength, He is your peace, He is your Joy, Rescue and Escape...keep going!
So many times in life I/we want to scream - why? But it is not the right question! And further more - it is the absolute wrong question! The right question is - who? Who are we focused on? Who is our source of strength? Who is our source of hope, encouragement, life? Who is our motivation? Who is our testimony? Who is our worship?
Is it the/a celebrity? The singer, star, or athlete? Is it our children, spouse, significant other? Our co-workers, boss, team or position? Is it our family, friends, or church community? And please - don't get me wrong - these can be absolutely incredible people, but can also take the "spotlight", glory and honor that is due to Christ Jesus alone in our worship and praise! And yesterday - He bumped me - and reminded me that my undivided attention must be on Him and Him alone! If it is...everything else will remain in perfect balance! He must be the "hub" of our lives in order for every "spoke" - the people/things that He needs us to stand in the gap for - to be perfectly positioned and allow us to "roll" according to His Purpose and Will...and again, please know that this knucklehead has not "already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me." [Philippians 3:12]
And prayer is our best help when trials come our way, because it keeps us in communion with God! And is exactly what Kelly and I continue to lean into to transform our perspective! After an awesome conversation with my Managing Director with the Billy Graham Association...who has been absolutely unbelievable in and through this entire storm! The outpouring of support and love from the men and women that I serve along side of has been unfathomable! Talk about a ministry/community of prayer, encouragement and hope! And having the opportunity to take this week off - and next if I need it - to love on my bride and kids, is one of the greatest blessings in the midst of this journey!
Then Grandma Barrett showed up with dinner [Hallelujah] - and even though Kel still did not have an appetite - corn, applesauce and strawberry shortcake was a little bit of heaven for Carter, Jordyn and Daddy! And after watching a doe and two fawns in the back yard for a little while - all was quiet, both kids asleep and an awesome moment for daddy and mommy to just sit still and pray/talk together!
Yeah - it was a long day, but once again the power of prayer turned the day upside down and truly allowed us to see God's grip of Grace in our lives! Kelly and I continue to me amazed at how the Lord continues to reveal himself to us time and time again, and continues to teach us to be strong and courageous, for the Lord God is with you wherever you go! Standing firm on that Promise found in Joshua 1:9...
Today - has been an awesome morning! Kel and I were up early...allowing for some great quiet time, devotion and conversation! With breakfast already in us, the sun shining, and the kids anxiously awaiting the arrival of Katie - Kelly's cousin who will be staying with us for a few days to help [Praise the Lord] today is going to be an awesome day!
All Eyes on Jesus!
Sunday, July 26, 2009
"Let's get those papers rollin"...
was Kelly's response when we found out that we were being discharged this afternoon! It was hilarious - Pastor Scott Stevens and I lost it - and it will be a moment that I will never forget! Kel comes up with some good one liners - but "let's get those papers rollin" is one of her best...
So, after a great mid-morning to early afternoon of rest - the doctors decided to discharge Kelly and Jackson! Things are going/progressing well...her pain is under control - although she is still very sore and unable to really do a whole lot at this point. The next six weeks are going to be tough for her - especially as she is unable to care for Jordyn and Carter in the incredible way she normally does day in and day out! She is an awesome mommy - and tonight when her mom and dad [who by the way need our prayers as Grandma Backhoe - that's Kelly's mom - fell and broke both of her arms over the weekend!] brought the kids over to the farm, it was a very emotional reunion as Kelly was unable to pick up and cuddle with Jordyn and Carter like she always does! Gonna be rough and many tears may be shed...but we will get through this, and will be bringing in some reinforcements in the way of support! And it means that "daddy" needs and will step up his care of the most important people in my life - Mommy, Carter, Jordyn and Jackson!
And after an evening of playing outside together, making dinner, a quick four wheeler ride, two baths and bedtime routines this guy is exhausted! It has been a long and emotionally intense weekend, and since Jordyn, Carter and Kel are all sleeping...time for this guy to call it a day! I hope you had an awesome weekend and thank you again for all your prayers and encouragement to get us through this weekend! I can't wait to see what God has in store for us this week!
All Eyes on Jesus...
So, after a great mid-morning to early afternoon of rest - the doctors decided to discharge Kelly and Jackson! Things are going/progressing well...her pain is under control - although she is still very sore and unable to really do a whole lot at this point. The next six weeks are going to be tough for her - especially as she is unable to care for Jordyn and Carter in the incredible way she normally does day in and day out! She is an awesome mommy - and tonight when her mom and dad [who by the way need our prayers as Grandma Backhoe - that's Kelly's mom - fell and broke both of her arms over the weekend!] brought the kids over to the farm, it was a very emotional reunion as Kelly was unable to pick up and cuddle with Jordyn and Carter like she always does! Gonna be rough and many tears may be shed...but we will get through this, and will be bringing in some reinforcements in the way of support! And it means that "daddy" needs and will step up his care of the most important people in my life - Mommy, Carter, Jordyn and Jackson!
And after an evening of playing outside together, making dinner, a quick four wheeler ride, two baths and bedtime routines this guy is exhausted! It has been a long and emotionally intense weekend, and since Jordyn, Carter and Kel are all sleeping...time for this guy to call it a day! I hope you had an awesome weekend and thank you again for all your prayers and encouragement to get us through this weekend! I can't wait to see what God has in store for us this week!
All Eyes on Jesus...
One rough night...
"Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see." [Hebrews 11:1]
Last night was rough, ya'all! Kel fell sleep around 9:30pm - two hours after taking her pain medicine - and slept soundly until we were woke up around 1:00am, when the remote control to the TV fell to the floor and accidentally hit the "nurse call" button...and we hear, "may I help you!" After apologizing for accidental call and feeling absolutely foolish, what followed was one of the toughest night's we have ever put in!
Kel was now wide awake, two hours behind in her pain meds and very sore! The nurses ended up coming in to give her medicine and try to get her comfortable again. Her stomach was "tightening" as Kelly described and was describing the pain as an 8 on a scale of 1 to 10...10 being the worst pain ever. Obviously, this had everyone concerned that she was having contractions or signs of pre-term delivery. After getting medicine in her and monitoring her uterus and Jackson for about a half hour - the on call doctor comes in for an internal exam of her cervix. I can only imagine how much pain she is in during all of this! I was in pain just watching....then Jackson decides to do some back flips and dance in Kelly's belly! You should have heard him on the monitor - I swear he knew exactly where the probe/microphone was and he was kicking it from the inside out!
Finally - after several hours of examination, the doctors determined that Kelly's uterus is still "contracting" back into place after being manipulated so much during the procedure, and that her pain was heightened by Jackson's movements! They described the fact that she is going to experience pain similar to her two prior c-sections with Carter and Jordyn, but will be more intense due to Jackson pushing, kicking, and pressure on a sore uterus and incision! But, it is like Kelly said - this is the best case scenario! Jackson is alive and doing well...and a growing baby boy with flow through his left ventricle and aorta! She is so awesome...talk about faith and perspective!
Since Kelly is the first patient with a successful Fetal Aortic Balloon Valveoplasty here in Pittsburgh - there are many "first time" moments for all involved and with that comes moments of uncertainty! So please keep our team of doctor's and nurses covered in prayer for their strength, wisdom, discernment and peace! There were many anxious and intense moments through out the early morning hours through the uncertainty...but we finally did get some sleep from about 4 to 9am! Hallelujah! And as I write this update morning...Kelly is back to sleep and is absolutely beautiful! She looks so peaceful and is getting some great rest! Thank you so much for I am seeing the impact of your prayers!
There is a possibility that we may be heading home to the farm today - but are waiting to meet with Dr. Speer before the discharge plan is determined! So please continue to cover Kelly's rest and comfort in prayer - and I will let you know the discharge forecast [as it is raining here in the 'burgh this morning] as soon as we know! Have an awesome Sunday!
All Eyes on Jesus...
Last night was rough, ya'all! Kel fell sleep around 9:30pm - two hours after taking her pain medicine - and slept soundly until we were woke up around 1:00am, when the remote control to the TV fell to the floor and accidentally hit the "nurse call" button...and we hear, "may I help you!" After apologizing for accidental call and feeling absolutely foolish, what followed was one of the toughest night's we have ever put in!
Kel was now wide awake, two hours behind in her pain meds and very sore! The nurses ended up coming in to give her medicine and try to get her comfortable again. Her stomach was "tightening" as Kelly described and was describing the pain as an 8 on a scale of 1 to 10...10 being the worst pain ever. Obviously, this had everyone concerned that she was having contractions or signs of pre-term delivery. After getting medicine in her and monitoring her uterus and Jackson for about a half hour - the on call doctor comes in for an internal exam of her cervix. I can only imagine how much pain she is in during all of this! I was in pain just watching....then Jackson decides to do some back flips and dance in Kelly's belly! You should have heard him on the monitor - I swear he knew exactly where the probe/microphone was and he was kicking it from the inside out!
Finally - after several hours of examination, the doctors determined that Kelly's uterus is still "contracting" back into place after being manipulated so much during the procedure, and that her pain was heightened by Jackson's movements! They described the fact that she is going to experience pain similar to her two prior c-sections with Carter and Jordyn, but will be more intense due to Jackson pushing, kicking, and pressure on a sore uterus and incision! But, it is like Kelly said - this is the best case scenario! Jackson is alive and doing well...and a growing baby boy with flow through his left ventricle and aorta! She is so awesome...talk about faith and perspective!
Since Kelly is the first patient with a successful Fetal Aortic Balloon Valveoplasty here in Pittsburgh - there are many "first time" moments for all involved and with that comes moments of uncertainty! So please keep our team of doctor's and nurses covered in prayer for their strength, wisdom, discernment and peace! There were many anxious and intense moments through out the early morning hours through the uncertainty...but we finally did get some sleep from about 4 to 9am! Hallelujah! And as I write this update morning...Kelly is back to sleep and is absolutely beautiful! She looks so peaceful and is getting some great rest! Thank you so much for I am seeing the impact of your prayers!
There is a possibility that we may be heading home to the farm today - but are waiting to meet with Dr. Speer before the discharge plan is determined! So please continue to cover Kelly's rest and comfort in prayer - and I will let you know the discharge forecast [as it is raining here in the 'burgh this morning] as soon as we know! Have an awesome Sunday!
All Eyes on Jesus...
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Faith crushes Fear!
"For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline." [2 Timothy 1:7]
This afternoon Paul's words in 2 Timothy and those of Christ found in John 16:33..."so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world." .. have been great encouragement to us!
Today has had its ups and downs, with a wide range of emotions from anxiety, worry, excitement, gratitude, uncertainty, strength, exhaustion, joy, fear and peace! It has been an intense day of reflecting/processing the miracle of Jackson's life-changing procedure yesterday! It has been overwhelming at times - not going to lie! Overwhelming in the sense of thanksgiving! Overwhelming in the sense of pure joy! Overwhelming in the sense of how great God's love, healing, grace, strength and peace are present in our lives! And overwhelming in the sense of how intense this storm has been...and the only way that we are still standing is because of the peace and strength we have in Christ - as He has demonstrated His Love, Guidance and Provision through all of you!
The trials in the last two weeks have been crazy - to say the least - but, God has given us an Advocate, Counselor, Comforter and Encourager in the Holy Spirit! And here is the Truth that has truly brought me to a point of surrender through out the day: Fear is the enemy of Faith! If I told you that through this whole journey there has not been moments of fear - I would be a hypocrite! Fear has been an emotional reaction that we have had to truly surrender time and time again, and today...we had to surrender this emtion again! Our faith has been tested like never before in this journey - and it is continuing to be tested! This journey is no where near over - and even as we sit on the other side of one of the greatest miracle I have ever witnessed with an attitude of praise...the enemy is not going to stop attacking! We must continue to remain surrendered at the foot of the Cross, and must stay prepared and focused in the Word as the enemy is going to bring every scheme possible to shift our eyes off of Jesus in this storm...and when/if you are experiencing moments of fear, timidity, worry or doubt...as we have in this storm - know that your eyes are not on the One who promises Life, Strength, Peace and Rescue! Christ taught us to deny/surrender our selfish desires [including fear] daily, pick up our cross and follow Him if we truly want to be His disciples!
Tonight...please continue to pray! Pray for Rest and Strength to cover Kelly and Jackson! Kelly has been getting out of bed and moving around this afternoon/evening, eating great (heck, she had pizza for dinner!) and is feeling much better! The doctors/nurses have gotten on top of her pain - eventhough she is still a little "itchy" and sore - and is doing so much better tonight compared to late last night and early this morning! As for Jackson...He is doing great! His heartbeat continues to be strong anywhere from 145-160 beats per minute - and continues to bounce around inside of Kel - a great praise, but also a point of pain for a sore mommy!
Pray for continued Peace and Patience as we continue to wait upon the Lord! The next four months - may very well be the longest four months of our lives! The "waiting" has just begun - and is another intense test for a man who loves to move at 300 mph! God teaches us "peace, be still", and that He leads us beside "still waters"...and many times there seems to be more fun and excitement in the "wake" rather than in the "still" waters, but this whole journey has been such a learning experience, and I/we will continue to lean into the prompting and teaching of the Holy Spirit! There is an overwhelming sense of peace that goes beyond all understanding, and the Lord is teaching this knucklehead a new definition of "stillness"! I am looking forward to "slowing down" and focusing on enjoying the blessing of today!
Our natural reaction to many of life's hurdles, trials, adversities and storms may be fear [whatever that fear may be] - but, peace...well, peace is the supernatural, divine response God gives us by His Grace through His Son! Choose to respond rather than react, because fear is the enemy of Faith. Stand firm on the Promise that Faith crushes Fear!
All Eyes on Jesus...
This afternoon Paul's words in 2 Timothy and those of Christ found in John 16:33..."so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world." .. have been great encouragement to us!
Today has had its ups and downs, with a wide range of emotions from anxiety, worry, excitement, gratitude, uncertainty, strength, exhaustion, joy, fear and peace! It has been an intense day of reflecting/processing the miracle of Jackson's life-changing procedure yesterday! It has been overwhelming at times - not going to lie! Overwhelming in the sense of thanksgiving! Overwhelming in the sense of pure joy! Overwhelming in the sense of how great God's love, healing, grace, strength and peace are present in our lives! And overwhelming in the sense of how intense this storm has been...and the only way that we are still standing is because of the peace and strength we have in Christ - as He has demonstrated His Love, Guidance and Provision through all of you!
The trials in the last two weeks have been crazy - to say the least - but, God has given us an Advocate, Counselor, Comforter and Encourager in the Holy Spirit! And here is the Truth that has truly brought me to a point of surrender through out the day: Fear is the enemy of Faith! If I told you that through this whole journey there has not been moments of fear - I would be a hypocrite! Fear has been an emotional reaction that we have had to truly surrender time and time again, and today...we had to surrender this emtion again! Our faith has been tested like never before in this journey - and it is continuing to be tested! This journey is no where near over - and even as we sit on the other side of one of the greatest miracle I have ever witnessed with an attitude of praise...the enemy is not going to stop attacking! We must continue to remain surrendered at the foot of the Cross, and must stay prepared and focused in the Word as the enemy is going to bring every scheme possible to shift our eyes off of Jesus in this storm...and when/if you are experiencing moments of fear, timidity, worry or doubt...as we have in this storm - know that your eyes are not on the One who promises Life, Strength, Peace and Rescue! Christ taught us to deny/surrender our selfish desires [including fear] daily, pick up our cross and follow Him if we truly want to be His disciples!
Tonight...please continue to pray! Pray for Rest and Strength to cover Kelly and Jackson! Kelly has been getting out of bed and moving around this afternoon/evening, eating great (heck, she had pizza for dinner!) and is feeling much better! The doctors/nurses have gotten on top of her pain - eventhough she is still a little "itchy" and sore - and is doing so much better tonight compared to late last night and early this morning! As for Jackson...He is doing great! His heartbeat continues to be strong anywhere from 145-160 beats per minute - and continues to bounce around inside of Kel - a great praise, but also a point of pain for a sore mommy!
Pray for continued Peace and Patience as we continue to wait upon the Lord! The next four months - may very well be the longest four months of our lives! The "waiting" has just begun - and is another intense test for a man who loves to move at 300 mph! God teaches us "peace, be still", and that He leads us beside "still waters"...and many times there seems to be more fun and excitement in the "wake" rather than in the "still" waters, but this whole journey has been such a learning experience, and I/we will continue to lean into the prompting and teaching of the Holy Spirit! There is an overwhelming sense of peace that goes beyond all understanding, and the Lord is teaching this knucklehead a new definition of "stillness"! I am looking forward to "slowing down" and focusing on enjoying the blessing of today!
Our natural reaction to many of life's hurdles, trials, adversities and storms may be fear [whatever that fear may be] - but, peace...well, peace is the supernatural, divine response God gives us by His Grace through His Son! Choose to respond rather than react, because fear is the enemy of Faith. Stand firm on the Promise that Faith crushes Fear!
All Eyes on Jesus...
His instruments...
"But you are the ones chosen by God, chosen for the high calling of priestly work, chosen to be a holy people, God's instruments to do his work and speak out for him, to tell others of the night-and-day difference he made for you—from nothing to something, from rejected to accepted." [1 Peter 2: 9-10, The Message]
What a day yesterday! Our God is Seriously Ridiculous - and how awesome is His healing, provision, love and encouragement!
Last night - was rough though! Kelly had a very hard night with pain and discomfort following the procedure and general anesthesia. We were able to get a few hours of sleep, once we were transferred to a recovery room and Kelly was in a more comfortable bed. The doctor's woke us up early this morning and began to check Kelly and Jackson's progress. Kelly's pain medication seem to have "caught up" and the pain has substantially subsided! Jackson's heart beat has been steady through out the night between 145-160 beats per minute, and Kelly could feel him moving around throughout the night and early morning hours, as usual!
However, when Kel woke this morning she was overwhelmed with a great anxiety (to be expected) for Jackson - especially since she was so groggy through out the evening updates and was a little concerned since we have not had an echo since the procedure! We shared a great cry together and prayed over Jackson! We knew Dr. Speer was planning to stop at some point this morning, and so we were just going to wait and talk with him about plans for an echo/ultrasound - and as soon as we finished praying together the nurses station called us and shared the news that Dr. Sherman, Jackson's Cardiologist, was on his way to the room to do an echo and check Jackson's progress! How awesome is God's timing!
And as soon Dr. Sherman got set up and began the echo - in walked Dr. Speer! And what an awesome brother in Christ! You know how wonderful it is to have a team of doctors provide the level of care these guys have, with a foundation of faith! We could not have asked for a more wonderful team who truly have been the hands/talent/instrument of Christ in this procedure to intercede in Jackson's life!
Dr. Sherman and Speer were with us for more than a half hour, and the echo results are just awesome! Jackson is doing so well! The flow through the left ventricle is great! The echo confirmed that a huge improvement has been made in the flow through the aortic valve-which means "success" and a true miracle! Jackson is by know means out of the woods at this point - and the focus now is to watch his heart's development over the next 4 months. His aortic valve has been opened so much that it actually is a "leaky" valve now- which is expected with the procedure! The valve now has a chance to heal over the next four months in-utero, and/or may need to be replaced through a surgery at birth. If the valve deteriorates and/or the ventricle does not develop, the Norwood surgery process (series of surgeries starting at birth) may still be the next step! Right now it is just wait and see! Here is where the continued reinforcement in the foundation of prayer is going to be essential!
We will be having weekly echo's in Pittsburgh at this point - may be more/less frequent depending on Jackson's development - with our next echo this coming Wednesday! Kelly has about a six week recovery plan at this point, including no lifting, and most likely will be discharged tomorrow morning! Gonna be tough for an awesome mommy of two "cuddlers"! But-daddy is ready and excited to step up to the plate! And man, what an awesome team of support we have with our family, friends, church community and even strangers who are hearing the story and rallying with us!
To see the Body of Christ united and interceding is just absolutely awesome! And please - I beg you - keep your Eyes on Jesus! Don't give the enemy a crack to creep through! Don't let him speak discouragement, worry, doubt, fear into your lives - but live victoriously in the Death and Resurrection of our Lord - Christ Jesus - because there is Life in His Blood!
Someone made the comment last week that blood is thicker than water - and though it was not meant the way I am about to "unwrap" it - he is absolutely correct! The Blood of Jesus is stronger and thicker than anything this world can offer! Our relationships that stand on the foundation of Christ's Blood are stronger than any worldly friendship! And in the time of battle - the relationships we have in Christ's Blood are the ones that stand strong and build each other up in Love, Encouragement and the Truth found in the Word!
As Kelly stated so perfectly last night - "I don't even know how to begin to say thank you to Jesus for His blessing/miracle in Jackson!" and the same is true for all of you! We don't know how to even begin expressing our thankfulness and love towards you...we are so blessed that you are all "standing in the gap" with/for us and allowing the Lord to move in and through you!
We promise to keep you up to date through the blog - and sorry if you tried to call/txt last night or this morning...it was so intense and crazy, and then in the midst of it all my phone died! [Thanks Greg and Mel coming through in the clutch and bringing in a charger!!! And Stace and Rick - the early morning cup of coffee was exactly what I needed! Love you guys so much...]
Stay buried in the Word - and continue to Shout His Praise! You are His Instruments...tell the story of the night and day difference He has made in your life! And if you don't know Christ as Savior and the Lord of your Life - I beg you to talk with someone today - right now - or email/write/text/call me - go to church tonight or in the morning and talk with a pastor! It is a life or death decision - and again that is His Promise not mine! Read Romans 10 and Colossians 3 and come into relationship with Him today for the first time! It is not about Religion or Tradition...it is all about Relationship! And He still waits for you...and Loves you - just as you are! Stand firm on that Promise of the Lord - and don't let the world tell you otherwise!
All Eyes on Jesus...
What a day yesterday! Our God is Seriously Ridiculous - and how awesome is His healing, provision, love and encouragement!
Last night - was rough though! Kelly had a very hard night with pain and discomfort following the procedure and general anesthesia. We were able to get a few hours of sleep, once we were transferred to a recovery room and Kelly was in a more comfortable bed. The doctor's woke us up early this morning and began to check Kelly and Jackson's progress. Kelly's pain medication seem to have "caught up" and the pain has substantially subsided! Jackson's heart beat has been steady through out the night between 145-160 beats per minute, and Kelly could feel him moving around throughout the night and early morning hours, as usual!
However, when Kel woke this morning she was overwhelmed with a great anxiety (to be expected) for Jackson - especially since she was so groggy through out the evening updates and was a little concerned since we have not had an echo since the procedure! We shared a great cry together and prayed over Jackson! We knew Dr. Speer was planning to stop at some point this morning, and so we were just going to wait and talk with him about plans for an echo/ultrasound - and as soon as we finished praying together the nurses station called us and shared the news that Dr. Sherman, Jackson's Cardiologist, was on his way to the room to do an echo and check Jackson's progress! How awesome is God's timing!
And as soon Dr. Sherman got set up and began the echo - in walked Dr. Speer! And what an awesome brother in Christ! You know how wonderful it is to have a team of doctors provide the level of care these guys have, with a foundation of faith! We could not have asked for a more wonderful team who truly have been the hands/talent/instrument of Christ in this procedure to intercede in Jackson's life!
Dr. Sherman and Speer were with us for more than a half hour, and the echo results are just awesome! Jackson is doing so well! The flow through the left ventricle is great! The echo confirmed that a huge improvement has been made in the flow through the aortic valve-which means "success" and a true miracle! Jackson is by know means out of the woods at this point - and the focus now is to watch his heart's development over the next 4 months. His aortic valve has been opened so much that it actually is a "leaky" valve now- which is expected with the procedure! The valve now has a chance to heal over the next four months in-utero, and/or may need to be replaced through a surgery at birth. If the valve deteriorates and/or the ventricle does not develop, the Norwood surgery process (series of surgeries starting at birth) may still be the next step! Right now it is just wait and see! Here is where the continued reinforcement in the foundation of prayer is going to be essential!
We will be having weekly echo's in Pittsburgh at this point - may be more/less frequent depending on Jackson's development - with our next echo this coming Wednesday! Kelly has about a six week recovery plan at this point, including no lifting, and most likely will be discharged tomorrow morning! Gonna be tough for an awesome mommy of two "cuddlers"! But-daddy is ready and excited to step up to the plate! And man, what an awesome team of support we have with our family, friends, church community and even strangers who are hearing the story and rallying with us!
To see the Body of Christ united and interceding is just absolutely awesome! And please - I beg you - keep your Eyes on Jesus! Don't give the enemy a crack to creep through! Don't let him speak discouragement, worry, doubt, fear into your lives - but live victoriously in the Death and Resurrection of our Lord - Christ Jesus - because there is Life in His Blood!
Someone made the comment last week that blood is thicker than water - and though it was not meant the way I am about to "unwrap" it - he is absolutely correct! The Blood of Jesus is stronger and thicker than anything this world can offer! Our relationships that stand on the foundation of Christ's Blood are stronger than any worldly friendship! And in the time of battle - the relationships we have in Christ's Blood are the ones that stand strong and build each other up in Love, Encouragement and the Truth found in the Word!
As Kelly stated so perfectly last night - "I don't even know how to begin to say thank you to Jesus for His blessing/miracle in Jackson!" and the same is true for all of you! We don't know how to even begin expressing our thankfulness and love towards you...we are so blessed that you are all "standing in the gap" with/for us and allowing the Lord to move in and through you!
We promise to keep you up to date through the blog - and sorry if you tried to call/txt last night or this morning...it was so intense and crazy, and then in the midst of it all my phone died! [Thanks Greg and Mel coming through in the clutch and bringing in a charger!!! And Stace and Rick - the early morning cup of coffee was exactly what I needed! Love you guys so much...]
Stay buried in the Word - and continue to Shout His Praise! You are His Instruments...tell the story of the night and day difference He has made in your life! And if you don't know Christ as Savior and the Lord of your Life - I beg you to talk with someone today - right now - or email/write/text/call me - go to church tonight or in the morning and talk with a pastor! It is a life or death decision - and again that is His Promise not mine! Read Romans 10 and Colossians 3 and come into relationship with Him today for the first time! It is not about Religion or Tradition...it is all about Relationship! And He still waits for you...and Loves you - just as you are! Stand firm on that Promise of the Lord - and don't let the world tell you otherwise!
All Eyes on Jesus...
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